Memory Suppression

[Warped]

I was watching a movie the other day and it got me wondering about my childhood. In the movie they showed a shed and I immediately thought...hey I used to have one of those! I used to like my old shed because it was a great hideout place to just get away from it all, it had snakes from time to time, mice, awesome tools, gasoline (i was a pyro) all my bikes, etc. But then this memory popped up of me being in there, alone and crying.

It was from the time I got my ass whooped from the neighborhood hoodlums for tackling my friend too hard when he was taunting me in a huge neighborhood football game. Yeah I was that kid everyone would beat up on. Yeah it happened to us all if we got out of line but 'smear the queer' would end tragically for someone, and a lot of times that would be me. My mom would never know i was in it because I could hide behind some boxes but I'm sure she could hear me crying sometimes.

So does anyone else have memories they have suppressed or forgot about that have recently surfaced??

 

[Dog--]

Now that you bring up the shed, I remember sneaking behind my old shed, and behind my neighbors garage and into their garden, they were old Italians, and they had an amazing garden, like WOW, they could charge admission to this place.. They were nice too, they'd always let us play there.

Not all suppressed memories are bad.

 

[Raziaar]

I remember now all the bodies I used to hide in old farmer bob's shed. And the cops pinned it on him, too! HAHAHAHAHA.

Wait wait?

 

[Tyguy]

i have a weird incest memory involving my cousin and I. I'm 75 percent sure it was a dream though, not kidding.

she hung herself last year...kinda random.

 

[Remus]

I know, I've seen plenty of movies with this subject as well. I tend to be very skeptical of the whole memory suppression thing. In my case the bad memories stick out like a sore thumb. Some of my strongest memories are bad ones. For example my oldest memory that I can remember is form when I was around 5 or 6 years old. I remember how I got a deep gash in my left cheek from a stupid piece of metal while running around after my cousin in the yard.

 

[Dog--]

^But you got a badass scar on your face now though right?

 

[Dekstar]

I still can't really remember it, but this girl I used to have a HUGE crush on recently sort of came back into my life (as a friend though--I have a girlfriend who I'm madly in love with). We were talking about stuff because I have impressive blind spots in my life (bad for an 18 year old, but I can't remember anything from when I was 8 'till about 12). According to her one of the ways I showed my affection was to follow her around on my knees. Not like shuffling along, but I could grab my ankles and bring them up to my hips and walk around like that on my knee caps, like stumps. I apparently used to follow her around all day like that.

No wonder my legs are ****ed up.

 

[Remus]

^But you got a badass scar on your face now though right?

It healed up pretty well, it's visible only if you look closely, but yeah I got mah pirate scar YARRRRRR!

 

[VirusType2]

You ever find yourself thinking about something that happened long ago, and suddenly you notice something terrible in that memory that you never realized before?

I am afraid of my memories.

 

[Ennui]

Virus it should be reassuring to know that it's just as likely you made up the bad parts as it is they actually happened (this applies to the OP as well, suppressed memories are sometimes accurate sometimes false and created by your mind). Also remembering something after a while and suppressing a memory are NOT the same thing.

 

[YROC]

I don't think this is a suppressed memory, but whenever I hear about kids being beaten by their parents or whoever, I think about when my dad beat me with a 2x4 (block of wood). I was in the first grade when that happened. He beat me so hard I couldn't walk right... Seriously. During the beating, I was thrown around, into walls and such and verbally abused... whatever. It always slips away from my mind, but I know it won't stay gone for long.

 

[Ennui]

I have some memories I wish I could suppress

 

[Dog--]

I don't care if he's your dad or if this offends you, he's a huge prick/piece of shit.

 

[YROC]

It doesn't bother me. Fire away.

 

[Dodo]

When i combine the green type of wine gum with a certain type of liquorice I smell/taste a flavour i last really tasted when i was 1, maybe 2, years old...
...and for some reason I associate it with big windows and sun.

-dodo

 

[Maestro]

i have a weird incest memory involving my cousin and I. I'm 75 percent sure it was a dream though, not kidding.

she hung herself last year...kinda random.

I'm guessing the two are related.
:bounce:

 

[Ennui]

When i combine the green type of wine gum with a certain type of liquorice I smell/taste a flavour i last really tasted when i was 1, maybe 2, years old...
...and for some reason I associate it with big windows and sun.

-dodo

Haha, I have weird relics from my childhood sensorium like this as well. Like for instance this one taste/feeling I get sometimes (seemingly randomly, or perhaps by memory / association) that for some reason makes me feel heavy yet hollow, not me necessarily but just the sensation of being heavy but hollow, or alternately heavy but with little mass (weird) and it always makes me think of Piglet from Winnie the Pooh.

 

[jet_porkins]

Is it possible to consciously suppress a memory? "Suppress" implies someone is taking an action to silence the memory.

Someone very close to me beat me for years (only those who have been truly beaten can understand how much of an understatement it is to write out that statement), when I was very young. I don't remember what year the beatings started, but they were between grades 2 and 7. Needless to say, there was a ton of verbal abuse to accompany. The fear I had for this person was to the point that whenever he would walk into a room I was quick to jump behind a piece of furniture, or quickly walk out of the room, or pretend I was sleeping just so that I would evade contact with him. This went on for several years.

Well, one day we decided to forgive each other. It was Easter of 2006. He's been a best friend ever since.

In fact, because of that day, I managed to forget that he ever beat me. Whenever I look at his face, talk to him on the phone/online, I never remember him for what he had done to me, something I am eternally thankful for.

If you want to forget a hateful memory out of a relationship, pursuing peace and forgiveness is the way to go.

Part of the definition of love is that love does not keep a record of wrongs done to you.

 

[Dog--]

When i combine the green type of wine gum with a certain type of liquorice I smell/taste a flavour i last really tasted when i was 1, maybe 2, years old...
...and for some reason I associate it with big windows and sun.

-dodo

When I east grilled cheese I think of the back end of my parents old station wagon they sold when I was 5.

Ever since I was 3 eating them, I've been making the connection somehow, I don't understand.

 

[Warped]

I remember this taste like it was yesterday. its the anti-diarrhea medicine and i took it like once but it was so bitter. my mom had me take it after running back from the woods one day wanting to poop lots

 

[DEATHMASTER]

Wow...HL2.netters got raped to hell. Not surprising though