My split off from the Stressed Out Thread

[Fender357]

Anybody else having a stressful week?

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... Relationship-related insanity.

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None of you..... I mean NO ONE HERE !!!!! Can top the kind of relationship maddness I've just gone through today.... You may think I'm crazy...but hey, I'm happy now. Ok....so this is what happend....

A wile back some of you might remember me talking about how my gf wanted to "take a break". Well.....that lasted for less than a day. But she was still hanging out with the Brian guy. She wanted to be able to have a day or 2 a week that we didn't get together and I was ok with that.
I need to explain my gf's personality a little. She some times really needs to know if we are really ment to be with each other. She freak's out because I've never been with any girl exept for her. And I am soooo freakn' fine with her being the only girl I will ever be with.
But she wasn't sure if I was the only guy she could ever be with. She didn't know if someone else (this Brian guy) would make her feel better or what. She had no way of really telling if we were ment to be together.


So........ here's what happend this morning and nearly lead to my compleat mental breakdown. But then lead to almost the compleat oppsoit now.....


We had sex. Not much different there. Before we had left school she was almost crying but she said it was because she'd had a really stressfull day yesterday (she'd gotten a flat tire wile her car was parked at her work)
So I'm like, ok..we'll just go home and cuddle and I'll try and make you feel better and stuff.

We get home....cuddle..then have sex (nothing different there)......

So then I'm holding her and out of no where she says, " I slept with Brian yesterday" .......

Nedless to say.... I cryed for nearly an hour.

She was trying to comfort me and make me feel better.....but damn that was hard to do.

So we talk about it and everything and she explains that it was a one time thing and that nothing ever like that will ever happen or could ever happen again.
She said there was nothing good about it and that she knew half way through that it was the biggest mistake of her life.
At the time hearing this helped very very little....but it did sort of help.
I calmed down a little and we talked more.....see.... the thing is.... I know...I mean KNOW...that I can't love anyone else. After her THATS IT. I know some of you say you get over first loves and that you can find some one else...well mabie some of you, yeah....but for me.....thats pure bull shit.
And me and my gf are almost just the same this way... We can't function without each other. If we didn't have each other our lives would be so ****ed up.
And hearing that she had, had sex with another guy....... it didn't make me feel anything bad twords her. Nothing at all.... I only felt the deepest pain of just purely being hurt . I didn't and don't love her any less. Or even trust her any less. Thats just how much I love her.

So I had calmed down but I still felt very ver hurt (very very very). Still kind of sobbing a little...
She promised me that we will always be together from now on. She said if I wanted she would never leave my side. She's going to drop out of college (its going nowhere for her) and get a job for the county with her mom. Then when we have enough money we will move in together and basicly start our lives together from there.

So the thing is.....I'm sure most of you, if you'd just found out your gf or bf had cheated on you, you sure as hell wouldn't want to be around them for a wile or anything.
Well not me! Probably about an hour and fifteen minutes after she told me we were having sex again. And not just sex. I mean......if there was ever a time to show her EXACTLY what she ment to me...so she would ALWAYS know and never doubt it again. I made love to her and gave her one of the biggest orgasms she'd ever had. She was crying most of the time because she said she didn't deserve to feel good.

So after that, even though I still was a bunch upset about the whole thing. I knew even after this crap... I couldn't be without her. And it's not like she'd been really really planning for it to happen with the guy. It just sort of "did". I'm still upset about it, but I know it's not going to happen again. Its really not in her nature to do somthing like this, and even though some times stuff happens between us, her sleeping with someone else is not normal.
But belive me, she is sorry about it. And I dont me like, "oooh...i'm sorry". I mean like, she's mine for the rest of our lives. She knows she can never apologize enough or do anything to make it truly better. The best she can do is be with me forever. And now she knows for sure that she can't be with anyone else EVER.

So I guess this is a case of one stupid shitty thing happening, and making a relationship even better, and stronger.

So now...this still being the same day......we sort of are engaged.

I know this may sound stupid (dosn't really to me though )
But we went and got tattoo's together. (she'd already had 1, its the little self portrait of John Lennon with IMAGINE (sp) under it)
So what we got on each other was our other half.
Basicly they are engagement tattoo's. They cost less than a ring and you can't ever loose it!

See my attachment for what I'm talking about.

We are just the seperation of one person, we're only truly happy when we are joined together. We need each other deep down and we know it now (for freakn' sure).

Someone might recognize it. Its from Hedwig and the Angry Inch. from "The Origin of Love" video.

You might call me crazy...and I'm sure some of you will. You might just be right....but I'm happy now.
And you might think my girl friend is crazy. You could be right, but she is the only person that will ever exist that can make me feel as good as I do now.




(the half on the right is what I got, the half on the left is what my gf (now Fiancé ) got. Mine on my right hip area and hers on her left hip area, so when we are together the to halfs will become one, like we do. )


( i'm so freakn' mushy some times )

 

[Fender357]

If it helps, here are the lyrics to that song.

The Origin of Love

When the earth was still flat,
And the clouds made of fire,
And mountains stretched up to the sky,
Sometimes higher,
Folks roamed the earth
Like big rolling kegs.
They had two sets of arms.
They had two sets of legs.
They had two faces peering
Out of one giant head
So they could watch all around them
As they talked; while they read.
And they never knew nothing of love.
It was before the origin of love.

The origin of love

And there were three sexes then,
One that looked like two men
Glued up back to back,
Called the children of the sun.
And similar in shape and girth
Were the children of the earth.
They looked like two girls
Rolled up in one.
And the children of the moon
Were like a fork shoved on a spoon.
They were part sun, part earth
Part daughter, part son.

The origin of love

Now the gods grew quite scared
Of our strength and defiance
And Thor said,
"I'm gonna kill them all
With my hammer,
Like I killed the giants."
And Zeus said, "No,
You better let me
Use my lightening, like scissors,
Like I cut the legs off the whales
And dinosaurs into lizards."
Then he grabbed up some bolts
And he let out a laugh,
Said, "I'll split them right down the middle.
Gonna cut them right up in half."
And then storm clouds gathered above
Into great balls of fire

And then fire shot down
From the sky in bolts
Like shining blades
Of a knife.
And it ripped
Right through the flesh
Of the children of the sun
And the moon
And the earth.
And some Indian god
Sewed the wound up into a hole,
Pulled it round to our belly
To remind us of the price we pay.
And Osiris and the gods of the Nile
Gathered up a big storm
To blow a hurricane,
To scatter us away,
In a flood of wind and rain,
And a sea of tidal waves,
To wash us all away,
And if we don't behave
They'll cut us down again
And we'll be hopping round on one foot
And looking through one eye.

Last time I saw you
We had just split in two.
You were looking at me.
I was looking at you.
You had a way so familiar,
But I could not recognize,
Cause you had blood on your face;
I had blood in my eyes.
But I could swear by your expression
That the pain down in your soul
Was the same as the one down in mine.
That's the pain,
Cuts a straight line
Down through the heart;
We called it love.
So we wrapped our arms around each other,
Trying to shove ourselves back together.
We were making love,
Making love.
It was a cold dark evening,
Such a long time ago,
When by the mighty hand of Jove,
It was the sad story
How we became
Lonely two-legged creatures,
It's the story of
The origin of love.
That's the origin of love.

 

[D33]

What is it with people thinking "ooh, a gaming board full of gamers, the majority of which are kids who haven't actually entered into a relationship. I think I'll talk to them about my love life, relationship goings on and seek them out for guidance."

I mean, seriously..

I'd rather see a thread promoting religion as a good thing than read/see another one of these :/

 

[Onions]

you need emo, asap!
dashboard confessional - screaming infidelitys.mp3

ignore d33, he's been bitter ever since starmonkey dumped him for me

 

[Fat Tony!]

too much detail+ text think of the small people who cant reach the mouse......
Anyway I dont know how old you are, how long you've been in the relationship or whatever but u'll probably find something that really annoys u about this girl, probably something u'l find when you live with her so id say dont do anything drastic yet.......

 

[Suck Fish]

That was an interesting read.

When would you like me to call you crazy?

 

[Letters]

I'd hope Brian didn't have any STD's! :O

 

[Foxtrot]

Atleast you didn't loose her...that is much worse.

 

[dfc05]

Basicly they are engagement tattoo's.

hey cool, congrats :cheers:

 

[Top Secret]

None of you..... I mean NO ONE HERE !!!!! Can top the kind of relationship maddness I've just gone through today...

Ohh, so you're the only guy in the world to have been cheated on?

 

[marksmanHL2 :)]

I don't have time to help with anything other than to try and explain to D33 why *I* think people ask these things on forums.


Simple really. They don't know us personally and will never meet us.

We are also impartial.


They appeal to alot of people

 

[Foxtrot]

If I tried telling somthing like this to any of my friends I would probably get laughed at.

 

[marksmanHL2 :)]

Thats what I am getting at.

 

[D33]

but it's so.... sad..

 

[Foxtrot]

Just kill Brian or whatever his name is, that always solves problems.

 

[pHATE1982]

/me hits D33 around the head

Stop being an insensitive eejit

It can help to just type this kinda stuff out to impartial people, cause it's not like he's gonna say that to all his mates. The guys had a rough day, give him a break...he probably just needed to vent this. Having the person you love cheat on you is the ultimate kick in the guts...

Glad to hear you're happy though Fender

 

[jimbones]

Good for you Fender! That's a very touching story you shared. Honest! Good luck to both of you!

 

[D33]

http://www.dvd365.net/gallery/bedazzled/bedazzled05.jpg

tbh.

 

[Fat Tony!]

Im confused what are you implying d33

 

[D33]

Not watched the film then ?

 

[Fat Tony!]

what film. Id say no

 

[Crushenator 500]

if you actually read the link, it says its from bedazzled.

 

[Fat Tony!]

Erm my browser doesnt do that
/me runs cos he seem stupid.
but anyway what are u implying anyway

 

[Crushenator 500]

i dunno, ive not seen the film

 

[Fat Tony!]

damn u d33 all this spam is ure fault

 

[Foxtrot]

Hahah, nice pic.

 

[pHATE1982]

D33 is implying he's a too sensitive pansy assed guy whos girlfriend will run off and bang a jock.

Cause thats what happened in the film.

 

[Foxtrot]

And he gets sand kicked in his face...