and here I sit

[GhostValkyrie]

I had to sever a very important friendship earlier this week, and it looks as though another one is going that way, too.

So, things are a bit crappy...well, a lot. These two individuals meant a whole hell of a lot to me, and still do. But one relationship has ended in tragedy, while the other fading into darkness. Even worse is that one of those very people is a member in good standing on these forums. I don't know what's wrong. Maybe he just doesn't want to be my friend anymore.

As for the other, she's a rotting limb that I've craddled for too long. Amputation is the only way I'll survive.

Sprafa also had to leave earlier; That sucks, too.

 

[GhostValkyrie]

It seems every 10 topics or so I kill just by posting an even serious reply.

 

[Farrowlesparrow]

Heh, I think I have an idea who you are talking about on these forums. If it is them, it would be a shame if you lost that friendship...Although I wonder how it has changed in light of certain changes that took place in that persons life...


Of course, I could be completely wrong

 

[oldagerocker]

We all lose friends mate, and we make them all the time... nothings lasts forever and losing friends can be a positive thing, a few months/years from now when you look back... just go with the flow.

 

[GhostValkyrie]

Losing this person...
We all lose friends, so though you mean well, I take as a condescending remark. Even though I know you don't mean it that way, I just feel like I'm being insulted. I'm not an immature child who puts pure life values on just friendship. But I certainly don't take it lightly when I have such a strong tie with someone and this type of thing happens...it's. Details I don't want to share, but the way things are ending is just...

The one friendship that's tragic needs to end, simply put. I can't let it go on. All it will do is cause grief, so it hurts less than it normally would.

The second friendship; It's starting to hurt less. It's like a numbing feeling crawling through your chest. Try and understand; These friends mean much to me.

The first friend I've known for 5 years, have gone through absolute hell with.
I went to the edge with her, beyond, and returned.

The second one pushed me off when I was turned around, gazing into the horizon. Then suddenly caught me before I hit the ground. I wasn't prepared. Understand, I'm always ready; Always alert, and yet I didn't see the sucker punch, that relationship delt, coming. He looked up to me, and I refused to look down to him like everyone else...and things went on from there. I have no idea what happened. He just, stopped talking to me.

Trust me, being in my shoes it would hurt too.
It won't hold me back from being happy forever, but it hurts a lot. I'm as human as the rest, and I refuse to kill my emotions like I used to.

So, please don't think you can give me advice on how to handle losing friends... A close friend of mine killed herself years ago. I know how to cope with it. I just thought I'd try to tell you people something that was going on with me, seeing as that's what the topic called for. I think I'm gonig to leave this topic, now.

 

[<RJMC>]

I hav problens too
the worst is that I am like not sociable
I dont speak
I feel like I can join to the persons
and everityme I am whit someone especially a girl I feel like that person dont want to be close to me

I feel like I hav nothing of importance

 

[Kyorisu]

I'm not exactly religous or anything, but I'd like to quote something.

God loves you, and has a reason for you being here.

Now as I said I'm not religous but I can beleive the statment to an extent. You do have to find a purpose in life blah blah blah

/Me gets Caffiene

 

[Sparta]

I hav problens too
the worst is that I am like not sociable
I dont speak
I feel like I can join to the persons
and everityme I am whit someone especially a girl I feel like that person dont want to be close to me

I feel like I hav nothing of importance

Same thing happens to me.
When i was 14 i broke my hip and i was away from school all of year 8. I had no one to talk to but my Family. TV and Computer Games kept me company, and then when i got better, i returned to school in Year 9 as a totally different person. I was shy (Still am) quiet and anti-social, the complete opposite of what i was before.

Year 9 really sucked, one of my friends committed suicide, another became suicidal and everyone in my homeroom thought i had "issues" because i was so quiet. And then my friends started hating each other and my group of friends split into two, forcing me to choose which group i like better.

My Dad, who doesnt live with us now (Cheated on my mum after 24 years of marriage with someone whose 2 years older then my cousin(26) and 8 years older then my brother (20), he's 52 by the way) won $125,000 on "Who Wants to Be a Millionaire". that was so bad.

That year i also became suicidal as well after it occured to me that because of my bone disease i'll never have the chance to meet anyone because no girl will even look twice at me. I'm not ugly or anything but because of my height (5 feet, barely) I'm no competition for any of the other guys out there.



But then came Year 10



School suddenly became better, my friends grew more supportive of each other and there were less fights between them. I only had 2 broken bones that year and everything just seemed really really good.

Half-way through the year i went on this camp called Camp Aspire. Which was run by this guy named Mark Dobson (We call him Dobbo), he's like that Tony Robins guy, except Australian.

That really helped my confidence and everything and i started opening up more and i was able to be myself around others, instead of being shy and anti-social. I met a whole ton of great people and realised that people don't see me as i thought they do. Shy and weird and all. Everyone that got to know me on the camp told me i was a Champ and stuff like that, which really surprised me because no one's ever called me that. Some said i was hilarious and even Dobbo (The guy running the camp) complimented me on this call that had the whole place laughing.

And since then i haven't had a sad day. You've always gotta remain positive about everything because there is always people who have it worse off then you, and if you sit then and sulk about it you're wasting your time and you're not going to get anything done.

If you were molested, or
If you're Dad's an Alcoholic, or
If you're best friend was killed in front of you
The best thing you can do to help yourself is to move on and keep going forward because everyone deals with this shit.

If you sit around and complain about it, you're going to be stuck in a hole, and the hole will only get deeper if you don't move on.

The best revenge in life is living well

 

[Ghost Freeman]

How do you people converse with "real world" people about problem like this? Do you have deep heart to hearts or is it more like "meh, life sucks so I just deal with it"

Somtimes the latter seems easier but I think ultimately its better to go down to the roots of the problem and admit there is something very wrong in your life which needs to change, be it your fault or not, most of the time we as humans simply cover up the bad parts of our life through vanity or just not wanting to think about it.

I admit, that is what i've been doing. However, I am seeing a psychologist about it.

On another note, I'm looking at one of these smilies that has been stopped (likely a Firefox glitch) and it looks like its sticking its arms out, lol.

Anyways, back to business.

If you were molested, or
If you're Dad's an Alcoholic, or
If you're best friend was killed in front of you
The best thing you can do to help yourself is to move on and keep going forward because everyone deals with this shit.

If you sit around and complain about it, you're going to be stuck in a hole, and the hole will only get deeper if you don't move on.

The best revenge in life is living well

That seems to reach out to me more than anything else i've ever heard in my life.

 

[Bad^Hat]

I don't feel like talking about my problems on here because... LOL I don't have any. ****ing depression.