ehm... wtf.

[evil^milk]

long post

ok, wtf is wrong with me... i feel like crap because i can't live with my parents anymore...

ok, so this all starts some 10 months ago when we move to this new house. here, things are different; both my bro and sis leave home to go to college somewhere far away, leaving me alone with my parents :bonce:

after a few months, i find it difficult to communicate with my parents. i've always been a calm and serious person but the situation going in here was getting worse. i was becoming less and less active in my family (3) instead of talking more to my parents.

then, i become mad at my parents. i find out what type of people they truly were, and i realized they were not like me.

things have been pretty ****ed up since.

when i come home from school, i'll barely speak. when asked to do something, my heart fills with rage and i say "**** off" inside my head. but this has all been provoked with a purpose: my parents.

i don't even know what the **** i should do anymore. everyday the situation gets worse. today, i find out i'd been wearing two shirts and one pair of pants for the past 2-3 months, which is ****ed up because i can't go out wearing something decent when i go out somewhere with my friends or anywhere. so i asked yesterday if i could have some clothes. "sure." this had been asked previously, of course, some two months behind.

so then i got ready to go to texas to buy some clothes. i got the decent red shirt i had (some 3 months old) and the older pants (more than 6 months old). my mom got pissed at this. "wearing the same old clothes again?" "WHAT DO YOU ****ING EXPECT?! I HAVEN'T GOTTEN ANY CLOTHES BUT THESE AND ANOTHER SHIRT!" i yelled in my solitary mind. and then, she told me to wear this "other" shirt which, truthfully, had been locked away in my closet in perfect conditions, which i had NOT happened to pick and was too large for me.

"no..." i said for what happened to be the billionth time. i knew this was a bad move. my parents finally forced me to wear some 5 year old pair of jeans and that new t-shirt. trust me, i'm not spoiled. being spoiled was a different feeling i had when i was like 5.

then we went to the store, where i finally refused to buy anything because i didn't "like anything." i know, you could say i'm too proud, but i wanted to teach them a lesson they'd learn for not wanting to buy me clothes initially and for making me wear something i disliked. they bought these pants, finally, which i almost swore i'd refuse to wear if they'd buy em. they bought em. i'm never going to wear them, like that shirt they forced me to wear.

then my dad wants tp talk to me. what a novelty. he says he's worried and that my mom is under a lot of pressure. do i even care about them anymore? he asked me what my problem was, i don't even know. i remained silent, which might've worried him even more. i just want 5 minutes away from them

ive had a lot of things to look forwar dto though, like learning how to play guitar and things that keep me happy, like friends, dont think i'm a suicidal dude lol

i know ur thinking wtf. i just dont know what to do next. i cant talkt to my friends, because i recentyl just changed schools and i dont trust them much. i also have a problem with trusting peple in gneeral.

 

[Dulrough]

Erratic behavior = hormones.

 

[Pressure]

Ah, the joys of teenage angst.

 

[evil^milk]

nothing

 

[f|uke]

Its called adolesence. We all go through it.

Really I have no idea why you're mad at your parents or behaving in such a way. It is true, your parents should not tell you how to dress. On the other hand, you should be thankful for the food, shelter, and clothes they do provide.

But you've got a lot of conflicting emotions going on, and you're at an age when you're figuring out who you are and what it means to be your own man,. which means a certain amount of rebellion against the identity imposed upon you by your parents.

fight to be yourself,. but do your best to be understanding towards your parents. Nobody's parents are perfect,. lord knows,. but most of them are doing their best, given their own upbringing.

 

[CyberSh33p]

you sound like me

I suggest running away to the other side of the country

I will go with you

 

[Pressure]

I was like that at 15 but I like my parents now.

 

[The Mullinator]

In the long run submiting to your parents wishes will usually bring you a better life than fighting them. Not because they know better but because fighting them will only cause major problems for both you and them. Problems that are extremelly difficult to fix.

Always look and consider what may happen 10 years form now. Do you want to look nice now? Do you want to win now? Or do you want to win in the future? You are on a road where sure you may win at the moment, but in the long run you are only digging yourself a hole.

 

[evil^milk]

thanks people, i feel better now. lets go to antartica cybersheep where hopefully no one but the bears will disturb us dont hate me.

 

[DiSTuRbEd]

Eh I am in the almost same boat as you with my parents. Or should I say dad. My dad gets his daily consumtion of wine to the point hes sorta buzzed but now drunk you know?? Anyways he starts just spewing stupid shit from his mouth for no reason, (hes also deaf in one ear and losing hearing in the other ear) anyways he will also say shit to me when I don't even speak, like I will walk towards my room and make some dumbass comment. I usually just laugh it off but sometimes it really annoys the hell out of me and I tell him to shut the **** up, thats the basically only way of him leaving me alone. Hell on all holidays I get threatened by him, he says he will beat me up and what not, size is in my advantage. I am waiting for him to throw the first punch, just waiting! Sad thing is to, he tries and compensates for being mean by doing some nice things once in a blue moon, like he is going to co-sign for me, for my brother's Si. But other than that, I am basically on my own from my parents. They don't buy me clothes anymore, I have to do that myself, they feed me once in awhile, my aunt buys more than half the food so I usually ask her to get me something, cause I know she WILL.(I know this is one big paragraph, I am lazy.) But I mean I just can't be around my dad as much, sure when hes remodelling the house I'll help him move the heavy stuff since my aunt really can't do it. I am not going out of my way to be a total jackass, if you treat me nicely, usually the same I will treat you. But when you piss me off several times during the day, better not ask me to do shit, cause you won't get any help.

What I am saying is try to find something you both like and do it, maybe your parents will be nicer or something. But really, they should be putting clothes on your back if you don't have a job, thats their responsibility, if they fail to do so, you need to educate them that they need to start doing so.

 

[I Eat Babies]

Here's what I do when im feeling bad:
1.Pretend to go to sleep
2.Sneak out of the house
3.Have my friend pick me up
4.Drink heavily
5.Make out with random girls at parties
6.Sneak back in

And there you have it kids. Happiness in 6 easy steps. Or at least a good time.

 

[evil^milk]

hey disturbed thanks for sharing that. i'd say to make your dad feel better but i dont want to sound like some noob talking to a more experienced guy (like i'd know i hate it if some noob told me what to do).

 

[seinfeldrules]

When I grow up I dont want my kid looking like some gangsta, nutcase rapper, or some all black wearing fool. Damn right I'll put some decent clothes on him/her. I'm not sure if this applies to you, but I felt like sharing it.

 

[evil^milk]

good point seinfield. i don't dress that way tho... but if i did something wouldve had to be done.

nite people, thanks

 

[Ikerous]

My mother believes in ghosts over dinosaurs...
Can you imagine why i barely talk to my parents?
And i talk to her more than my dad...
Mostly cuz i prefer bad logic over pathetic
imature hissy fits.

 

[DiSTuRbEd]

Should I be an ass and sign him up for AA for his 53rd birthday?

 

[CyberSh33p]

probably not...

 

[Fat Tony!]

You sound like my brother, you got to realise sometimes that your usually WRONG and your parents are usually right. Just get along with them, it cant be that hard :\