I feel like shit for something I did

[BabyHeadCrab]

Ok so I tend to beat myself up over things but this time im really pissed at myself. Today at school a girl was takling to me who'm I was alredy peeved at for makeing fun of a boy who was less socially able to retort. Her and her friends were callin him names and I already yelled at them for that. But this time she was relatively friendly but maybe a little sharp and sarcastic. But as we walk down the stairs I mention the same thing and say in a stern voice as if I had been taken over and become his body-guard "dont let it happen again" she looked at me eerily then I gave her a slight push on the backpack not knowning she still had a stair or two to go down.. I would never trip a girl because i'm just like that even if she did at one point make fun of an "out there" kid (this kid was my neighbor and good friend for a very long time I feel like I have to defend him) but I generally feel terrible for laying a finger on anyone. But this time I feel even worse and my brain just WILL NOT STOP beating myself up about it and it's ruining my san andreas day. I pushed a girl I hardly knew while she was on the stairs, and I did so full of anger not jokeingly. Worse part is I dont have her name or number to apologize.. just a friend of her's phone number and I dont know how to describe her friend to her... so i'm lost on this just feeling like a violent freak and ****ing up a day thats supposed to be happy for me b/c of SA. I even got into Everquest II beta and it didn't cheer me at all... god why did I do that and I dont want to call her friend because I cant describe the girl to her.. because they'd both think I was a freak because I dont know either one very well. She didn't actually fall down to the ground or get injured in the slightest, it was just an asshole aggresive out or personality thing for me to do, and it's driving me nuts that I did it.

 

[Raziaar]

That sucks... just tell her, "Hey, I was being a bitch like you. Sorry!"

hehehe.

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

That sucks... just tell her, "Hey, I was being a bitch like you. Sorry!"

hehehe.

She never hit the kid though... man and I tend to think im a pacafist too. :bonce:

 

[oldagerocker]

Dont worry man, she didnt hurt herself... find her in school later and say sorry. 'dont let it happen again'.

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

Dont worry man, she didnt hurt herself... find her in school later and say sorry. 'dont let it happen again'.

She already thought I was a bit wierd.. and she even tried to be friendly but then I just pushed her.. so approaching her now will be something hard to do and ackward.. I just hope I can soon so I dont keep feeling like complete dog shit.

 

[Burn]

Here is how you describe here "The one who got pushed down the stairs by me" Im sure she wil know who your talking about..

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

Here is how you describe here "The one who got pushed down the stairs by me" Im sure she wil know who your talking about..

She wasent there when I did it.. not many people were.

 

[Lil' Timmy]

let the voices take you. keel zem.. keel zem all!

edit: don't you think the girl you pushed will have told her friend that you did that?

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

update: i just called the friend anyway (who didnt see the incedent) and nobody picked up.

let the voices take you. keel zem.. keel zem all!

edit: don't you think the girl you pushed will have told her friend that you did that?

that's what I was just thinking as I went to call.

 

[f|uke]

Uhm. What happened to the girl? You never actually said what the result was. Did she fall? I'd assume she did but you never actually said so. Did she get hurt?

You'll see this girl again, right? Tell her your sorry like you mean it. You were a total jackass. Giving an ultimatum like "Dont let it happen again" in a commanding tone can be perceived as a threat, and your actions certainly backed up that assumption. You do not have the power to make people behave any specific way.. do not act like you have control over them or you will only alienate the f'ck out of yourself. You need to appeal to their conscience,. that way you look like the good guy, and may actually sway them to change for the better.

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

Uhm. What happened to the girl? You never actually said what the result was. Did she fall? I'd assume she did but you never actually said so. Did she get hurt?

You'll see this girl again, right? Tell her your sorry like you mean it. You were a total jackass. Giving an ultimatum like "Dont let it happen again" in a commanding tone can be perceived as a threat, and your actions certainly backed up that assumption. You do not have the power to make people behave any specific way.. do not act like you have control over them or you will only alienate the f'ck out of yourself. You need to appeal to their conscience,. that way you look like the good guy, and may actually sway them to change for the better.

thanks for the incite, but I she didnt so much as stumble maybe 2 paces, I also already left a message on her friends message machine saying to call me asap so I can apologize properly. I also do not behave like this typically I had entered a protective state of mind over sam whom I grew up with who cant handle social things himself beacuse he didn't grow up know how to deal with jackass kids and public schools. I feel I have to defend him. But yes I am dealing the best I can and I know what I did was a mistake and caused what was aformentioned by you. Thanks for giving me your imput though. Your a very smart guy i've noticed as i've browsed these forums and I appreciate you posting here it helped me realize alot. Keep it up on these forums I think you'd be a fine moderator actually, but that's not up to me .

 

[PvtRyan]

Yeah, I know how bad that feels, unfinished business, next time, use something with more of an impact, like a shovel, or a chainsaw or a mime.

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

Yeah, I know how bad that feels, unfinished business, next time, use something with more of an impact, like a shovel, or a chainsaw or a mime.

always good to have some comic relief

 

[Raziaar]

Yeah, I know how bad that feels, unfinished business, next time, use something with more of an impact, like a shovel, or a chainsaw or a mime.

hahahaha. Couldnt help but laugh at that.

 

[Ames]

Give her flowers?....

 

[poksmote]

lol @ highschool

ask her out if you obsess so much over what she may or may not think about some action you caused. she sounds like she sucks anyway, but who cares what she thinks?

 

[Alec_85]

Don't you think she deserves a bit more than that? Push her harder next time Pianos from higher grounds works good too. Some girls like it rough (not that I would know)

 

[KidRock]

you should have punched her in the head..

 

[Dalamari]

Get down on one knee and beg for forgiveness

Once you mess up one of them, the whole pack goes bad, as in she will tell her friends and you will have a hard time getting anything outa women.

 

[Zeus]

you should have punched her in the head..

That's just wrong

 

[gh0st]

men 1.
women 0.

you put her in her place for the team, well done. women? at school? rediculous, what year is this?

 

[Prince of China]

Don't apologize to her.

 

[DavE0r]

just appolgies doode. Simple as. If you do, you will feel a little better.

Anger gets the best of all of us. I mean i have got in to big fights because of people picking on smaller people i know. One case being only a few weeks back, an old friend from juniour school, was getting shoved against a wall in colege. So i grabbed the lad who was holding him, and shoved him against a wall. He then thretened me..so i nutted him in the face..resulting in a bit of a fight, and a visit to the deans office to explain. I feel bad for nutting him for really no reason, but there was reason in itself.

//pats Shamp00 on the back!

 

[The Dark Elf]

Heh, the same people who think he did well for hitting a girl strangely have also in the past posted threads or posts about not getting girlfriends.. coincidence?

 

[Foxtrot]

Get down on one knee and beg for forgiveness

Once you mess up one of them, the whole pack goes bad, as in she will tell her friends and you will have a hard time getting anything outa women.

That is so true, I tell one person at work she is a bitch(and she was...) and now everyone hates me...

 

[Alec_85]

Heh, the same people who think he did well for hitting a girl strangely have also in the past posted threads or posts about not getting girlfriends.. coincidence?

Good point. /me edits his previous post :cheers:

 

[gh0st]

Heh, the same people who think he did well for hitting a girl strangely have also in the past posted threads or posts about not getting girlfriends.. coincidence?

i havent, i dont know what youre talking about. i have a girlfriend and regularly hit her. :thumbs:

 

[The Dark Elf]

i havent, i dont know what youre talking about. i have a girlfriend and regularly hit her. :thumbs:

Your thinking about spanking not hitting

 

[gh0st]

Your thinking about spanking not hitting

no. i use pvc pipe. *swigs his jack daniels and returns to the farm*

 

[PvtRyan]

Heh, the same people who think he did well for hitting a girl strangely have also in the past posted threads or posts about not getting girlfriends.. coincidence?

Girls... I'd hit it.

(interpret it as you'd like)

 

[Putz]

dude, when highschool ends you'll never see those people every again. So chaulk it up as one of "those embarassing moments" you can laugh about when ur drinkin with ur buddies. You'll have plenty more, trust me.

 

[Anthraxxx]

Are you sure you don't have O'Malley from the RvB series floating somewhere in your head?

 

[poksmote]

no. i use pvc pipe. *swigs his jack daniels and returns to the farm*

hahaha holy crap that made me laugh, good job :cheers:

 

[dart321]

Walk up to her, grab her by the shoulders, tilt her back and give her a deep, passionate kiss. It always works in the movies.

 

[gh0st]

Walk up to her, grab her by the shoulders, tilt her back and give her a deep, passionate kiss. It always works in the movies.

until your face is pumbled by her feminine fist of female fury.

 

[Yuri]

smack dat ho' 'round an git yo cut, BITCH

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

Heh, the same people who think he did well for hitting a girl strangely have also in the past posted threads or posts about not getting girlfriends.. coincidence?

I did not and never will hit a girl, please dont mis-quote me. I did however nudge her backpack whilst she was climbing down a the last few stairs. she stumbled back to her feet and I felt like complete shit for doing it.

 

[Phisionary]

Yeah, I know how bad that feels, unfinished business, next time, use something with more of an impact, like a shovel, or a chainsaw or a mime.

HA HA! HA! HA HA!

but, wait a minute. a mime? like, those fruity mutes with white makeup. I don't get it... :rolling:

You know what you should do, you should apoligise, and then chew her out for being such a bad person and picking on your friend. You come out seeming righteous and justified, and assuage you guilt, all in one... :E

...or maybe I've forgotten what highschool (I'm assuming) is like... Maybe she'll tell her friends about your little haughty guilt-trip attempt and laugh at you forever...

But in case it means anything to you, I think it shows your character that you feel bad about it. Whether that's the character is that of a pansy and a nerd, or a nonviolent, sensitive human being... depends on your point of view I guess..

 

[Triggerhappy41]

Dont forget that she was being a bitch and making fun of people for no reason. Still, you should apologise for pushing her or whatever, just tell her why it made you so mad so she might understand. Likely she will hate you whether you apologise or not.

hope that motivates you lol :thumbs:

 

[bliink]

yeah, just be honest, let her know how it made you feel, but dont try to overly justify why you did it, that might make you come across as hostile (which you may not want to do..)
just say that you really felt strongly about it, and you got a bit carried away, it made you feel really bad afterwards etc.. just be honest, but balance it with your perspective. remember, noone can see from your point of view, so you need to give them some idea.