Is your life eventful?

[Atomi]

I wake up tired, I go to sleep tired, I yawn all day long. I don’t remember when was last time waking in the morning felt refreshing. What about you?

I was like that, very tired and yawning during the last moths of 2004. I started to take it more easy, get more sleep and sometimes take a nap during the day. It helped me to get rid of the excessive tiredness. Though I was not melancholic as you, but anyways. I read your babytopic too, maybe that'll cheer you up. You won't get more sleep, that's for sure.

 

[Narcolepsy]

While this thead is a relic of the past, I hadn't read it before. I love threads like this. So much emotion poured out on such an insignificant forum... There's something special about that, even if I can't muster a word for it.

And reading that passage about depression, it really opens your eyes to how lucky most of us are. I believe that most believe that they are some of the least fortunate/unhappiest people in the world - but in reality, everyone feels that way. Yet we can never convince ourselves of this fact, because we, as humans, won't allow ourselves to.

 

[KoreBolteR]

well, i am currently looking for a job, im 17, i come online and post here browse, chat on msn, play css and map fir like 3 hours or so a day..
but in a week, i go to the gym, and go out with m8s, on the weekend i like to go to pubs with my friends.
i want to start learning spanish, guitar (maybe), and i might be starting ju jitsu tomoro , ROFL. im gonna start bookin driving lessons too .

 

[DoctorGordon]

Do this: Dump the girlfriend and go [back] to college

Also, get some objectives as bearings.

Heck, I plan to develop a new field of physics, become proficient at telepathy and telekinesis, escape the universe, and move to a higher state of existence.



Also, remember there are two roads in life...one road goes up the mountain, the other goes down the mountain (leading to the sewers). You want to always try to move up the mountain. And generally, the less 'fun' choice is the road that goes up.

...Choose wisely

 

[Dasparov]

If I view it any deeper I just see Teen Angst.. so I try not to.

I kinder do to, well not angry, just.... :bonce:

 

[baka-raven]

I know this is an old resurrected thread, but I really wanted to hear if Reak was feeling any better?

I had the same problem for a couple of months ago. I never accomplished anything. Went to school, sat there doodled all day, didnt listen to what my teacher told us. Came home, just sat there. meh.. booring time.
But after i "stopped" being in front of my computer all the time, it really worked wonder. Im not tired all the time anymore, im happy, and just recently i began drawing again. I also began weightlifting again. So even tho we wont admit it, Internet and computers really does affect you!
I cant tell if you use your computer as much as i did, but take some time off from the computer. Maybe it helps

Oh and for your other thread Mr. Reak. I hope it works out ^^ And best of luck in life, from me

 

[qckbeam]

My life is eventful, it just seems that every event affects me in a negative way. I have real trouble around people. When I was younger I underwent some rather messed up experiences at the hands of some truly disgusting individuals, and it's turned me into a nervous wreak- a jittery recluse afraid of everything. I feel sort empty, or hollow, totally joyless at times, even when I know I should be happy. My own father recently described me as a cold-hearted person. The look of utter disgust on his face hurt. I don't think I'm cold; I just have trouble expressing emotion. I haven't actually had a friend or acquaintance, or anything except the internet since the sixth grade. I'd give anything for one, just one. One person to talk to, one person who likes me for me. At least things have gotten a bit better in the past few weeks (thank god for voice chat and the UK).

I've been experiencing some weird things lately too; lapses in memory, serious mood swings. I can't sleep no matter how tired I may feel; I just find myself staring at the wall or ceiling for hours on end (although this has sort of been ongoing). When I do sleep my parents say they can hear me screaming. I wake up covered in sweat swinging at them when they check on me. I honestly feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes, and it's frightening me.

 

[mchammer75040]

Yea feel the same way as you sometimes qck, I was tooken advantage of when I was younger and its just turned me into a really cold person (not calling you cold).

I don't think I'm cold; I just have trouble expressing emotion. .

Ever thought about taking up some form of art? Ive always found it easier to express myself through poetry/prose, drawing,...etc.

Anyways its good to see some people feel the same way, Im just like you reak. The sad thing about is the exact samething plays over and over in my head, it just happens to be the thing that pisses me off more than anything: religious arguments with my family. Ive been mocked and ridiculed in my family ever since most of them found out Im atheist, I try not to care what they think. But the rejection/ridicule just looms over me and i picture myself arguing with them all the time, especially at work. I end up talking to myself and yelling, its gotten to the point where i need to daily or it gets all built up that i feel like Im going crazy. ;(

 

[Zeus]

Ok this thread is really, really creepy...



*sneaks out the thread back door*

 

[AntiAnto]

I feel the same way that you do Mr. Reak. I can't see why the hell I'm here and can't see how do I have to manage my life to be happy. I wake up the morning, never feel refreshed, go to school where I see people that I hate just because what they look like and how they express themself. And when I see them, I'm thinking that they shouldn't be there, because they are useless, they do nothing but complain and use what the Earth gave to us without ever say a thank you. I'm getting far of the main subject but this is how I feel. I need a real friend, a friend that I could say everything to and share what I feel with him/her. Yesterday, that was great: I was drunk and I was talking to two guys all the night...but we were all drunk. I can't seem to know how to live my life. My life needs to be lived, but I can't find a way to be happy. I need a girl... I need to live simply. I need to stop thinking. We think too much...

 

[Ikerous]

I don't have a single person whom i would consider a 'Friend' or anyone that i ever hang out with. Not that i particularly want one, but it does make for a rather uneventful existence.

 

[Mr-Fusion]

When I was younger I underwent some rather messed up experiences at the hands of some truly disgusting individuals

It ****ing sucks doesn't it. Everytime i see an old man with a toddler or little boy i watch them very very very closely. Any hint of something suspicious and i'll beat the man to a bloody pulp.

 

[DoctorGordon]

Deep child-hood issues; time to call in Freud here.

 

[CyberSh33p]

I don't like where I'm headed, I honestly don't think I really care for anyone, I hate most things about myself and what I do, and I hate that I hate doing just about everything. I don't have anyone to live or work for, and "myself" is not a good answer. From this angle, my future seems to hold unhappiness. I don't even want to go to college, I'm sick of throwing my life away at school.

 

[Locust]

This topic has alot to do with the thought process and why curiosity is so damn important to a functional human being. In order to feel active and unlethargic, a person must have an active mind that can focus on things that will bring about a sense of life. Now I'm not sure where the thought process gets lost in life, but it is time for us to start living with an imagination and with a curious and thoughtful mind. Ask yourself questions about the world and seek the answers. It will give you something to do and something to occupy your mindless drift time. I feel the same way at times, I think everyone does. What helps me get out of these deep hybirnations of my mind is to write and my journal, read the bible, and to pray. When I pray, I get ideas about things I need to do. It is like God is actually speaking to me. For example, during the Summer I decided to start saying 4 roserys a day. For those of you that don't know, a rosery consists of 9 Our Father prayers, 56 hail marys prayers, and a few other catholic prayers. This challenge gave me a lot of time to think about who it is I really was and in what direction I needed to go. The morning after these prayers, I felt refreshed and good about what I had accomplished. I felt closer to God and sensed that my life was not hopeless, but had a purpose, which was to serve the Lord. Now I don't know why, but anytime I start up on the computer again, I feel my dedication to God slipping away and the computer ends up taking up all my free time. I don't know why this is but it is something.
These mindless days I have make me really want to leave this materialistic society and go live in the wilderness where I would have to build all my own stuff and rely on God for survival. Maybe a 40 days and 40 nights thing. Also another way to feel good is to build something. It can be anything, from woodwork to welding. I have a welding shop and I always have to build something. Let me tell you that there is no greater feeling in the world than seeing a project turn out well, especially one that takes alot of effort. SO here are my two tips: seek God or whatever it is that you pray to and work hard in life.

 

[Tr0n]

SO here are my two tips: seek God or whatever it is that you pray to and work hard in life.

...and throw out your computer!

 

[AntiAnto]

This topic has alot to do with the thought process and why curiosity is so damn important to a functional human being. In order to feel active and unlethargic, a person must have an active mind that can focus on things that will bring about a sense of life. Now I'm not sure where the thought process gets lost in life, but it is time for us to start living with an imagination and with a curious and thoughtful mind. Ask yourself questions about the world and seek the answers. It will give you something to do and something to occupy your mindless drift time. I feel the same way at times, I think everyone does. What helps me get out of these deep hybirnations of my mind is to write and my journal, read the bible, and to pray. When I pray, I get ideas about things I need to do. It is like God is actually speaking to me. For example, during the Summer I decided to start saying 4 roserys a day. For those of you that don't know, a rosery consists of 9 Our Father prayers, 56 hail marys prayers, and a few other catholic prayers. This challenge gave me a lot of time to think about who it is I really was and in what direction I needed to go. The morning after these prayers, I felt refreshed and good about what I had accomplished. I felt closer to God and sensed that my life was not hopeless, but had a purpose, which was to serve the Lord. Now I don't know why, but anytime I start up on the computer again, I feel my dedication to God slipping away and the computer ends up taking up all my free time. I don't know why this is but it is something.
These mindless days I have make me really want to leave this materialistic society and go live in the wilderness where I would have to build all my own stuff and rely on God for survival. Maybe a 40 days and 40 nights thing. Also another way to feel good is to build something. It can be anything, from woodwork to welding. I have a welding shop and I always have to build something. Let me tell you that there is no greater feeling in the world than seeing a project turn out well, especially one that takes alot of effort. SO here are my two tips: seek God or whatever it is that you pray to and work hard in life.

Well... no offend but if there is no god? No that it is my opinion, but I'm not ready to say that the only purpose of our lives is to serve our Lord. It's creepy in my opinion. I'm pretty sure that there is a God, not a god like in the Bible who created the Earth in 7 days and blablabla, but someone, up there, who created us and let us on our own. Seeing it in this way, I can only see the purpose of our lives being something that needs to be lived and makes the people happy.

 

[Locust]

Then do some self examination and try to find out what it is that life is all about. Maybe some time alone in thought will nourish this need for understanding. I find that when I sit in scilence it brings about fantastic thought processes that usually end up being worth more than all the computer time in the world.

 

[DoctorGordon]

When you have free time, focus on creating energy in your mind, then suddenly wave a hand, and have the problems disappear.

 

[AntiAnto]

When you have free time, focus on creating energy in your mind, then suddenly wave a hand, and have the problems disappear.

It's not that easy.

 

[Gray Fox]

Damn this is on of the best threads created on these messageboards, one that I can certainly relate to, and like one other said I'm glad I'm not the only one. Anyways I have had this thread bookmarked since it was started, and if your lives change for the better or for worse please post it here so we can talke and learn from one anothers experiences.

 

[KoreBolteR]

I have 2 sets of friends.
the ones i go out with in the Real world, and the ones on the internet(mostly on this forum) even tho i dont know you lot in real life, i do consider most of you as "friends" lol

u get me ?

 

[Fat Tony!]

Atomi why did you resurrect this thread? :O

Oh well, I feel that opposed to the post I made a page back things have changed and things are starting to become much faster and exciting since my confidence has become a lot better. Its all good.

edit- for those who are feeling down all I can say is :music. Find the music that makes you feel really good and inspire yourself, look on the internet, research lookup your problem and see if anyone else is having it and see how they solved it.

 

[FoB_Ed]

Funny, I thought my life wasn't so great and then I found this thread and realized there's always someone worse off than you. I used to be much like you. Sitting on the computer, wasting hours upon hours of time just doing nothing worthwhile (which includes playing games.) The Internet and games aren't a bad thing unless you let them control your life. You know you might think that computers are the only source of happiness, when in fact they're the only source of your depression. I used to be so addicted I felt anxiety about seeing my friends or even leaving the house. But then I started evaluating my life and I realized I had wasted 16 years of my life playing games; sitting in my room for 10 hours a day depressed and shut up in my own self made prison. So I started doing things. I started learning martial arts, I started getting into music more and learning the guitar. I started going out with my friends and just generally being more happy. When you grow up and you're an old man, on your death bed, do you want to look back and see you've spent your entire life sitting in front of a monitor?

You aren't motivated because your so addicted to this machine that you don't want to get off it. Do yourself a favor and shut off your computer. Go outside and find something. Anything that will make you not hate yourself. Try and Live

 

[Narcolepsy]

Funny, I thought my life wasn't so great and then I found this thread and realized there's always someone worse off than you. I used to be much like you. Sitting on the computer, wasting hours upon hours of time just doing nothing worthwhile (which includes playing games.) The Internet and games aren't a bad thing unless you let them control your life. You know you might think that computers are the only source of happiness, when in fact they're the only source of your depression. I used to be so addicted I felt anxiety about seeing my friends or even leaving the house. But then I started evaluating my life and I realized I had wasted 16 years of my life playing games; sitting in my room for 10 hours a day depressed and shut up in my own self made prison. So I started doing things. I started learning martial arts, I started getting into music more and learning the guitar. I started going out with my friends and just generally being more happy. When you grow up and you're an old man, on your death bed, do you want to look back and see you've spent your entire life sitting in front of a monitor?

You aren't motivated because your so addicted to this machine that you don't want to get off it. Do yourself a favor and shut off your computer. Go outside and find something. Anything that will make you not hate yourself. Try and Live

Thank you, Mr. 1,400 posts. :E
This is true in some cases, but not in all. It could as well be caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain, and many here aren't addicted to the computer at all.

 

[Bad^Hat]

I sat down with a close childhood friend a while ago and he convinced me to tell him what was wrong (he knew it was something, I've skimmed over the topic before). Anyway I ended up telling him one of my deepest and most personal secrets. And then, bam, he comes back with "I was sexually abused as a child."

And I'm all like, "**** you, I'm in pain!" >_<

Haha, but yeah...

 

[tvharti]

Something good is going to come when you least expect. as the chinese proverb goes; If you dont believe in your abilitys how can anyone else believe in them either?...

I have my special abilities - but what does it take to believe in them? Just the little voice in my head that says: you are doing it right - keep it that way? no.

For example I know that I am a good person - I know that in the way I present myself to others - the way I treat others - I am on a very good path to finally be a very good person and to finally be happy. But there are just some things that I don't truly believe in. Someone once said to me: you impressed me - you have touched my heart in a way nobody else has. I have always wanted to believe that this is true but somehow I have not yet been able to. If it would be this way then I would be happy and I would have a person to share all my good parts with. But I haven't. Everything just ended in a big blow before it really started. I sometimes just feel so depressed, so angry at myself.

Sometimes I think I do not have the ability to convice others of the fact that I am a good person. Someone they can talk to, someone they can trust, someone they can have fun with. As you will know by now I do not really have that many friends, and the more I think about it there are really only 2. How often do i see them? once a month or less. I would like that to happen more often, but everyone has their one life and it seems there is really just no space for me.

I have achieved some goals in my life already. I have been very good at sports which has brought me a lot of respect I did get a very fine job which I am now 3 years in. Although there is the constant feel of mistrust by some of my colleagues - I am very happy to be part of that company and besides all problems it's something I am proud of talking about with others. Nevertheless the working situations has it's downsides. Sometimes I just ask myself: Why don't they trust in me? What am I doing wrong? No matter how hard I try - it just doesn't work. Or maybe it's just me that - for some reason - doesn't want to see that everthing is fine, and I'm just looking for someone that doesn't respect me the way that I feel I should be respected.

Maybe the problems lies beneath all that. Maybe it' just hard to belive in yourself when for the past several years you have been picked on and have been told you are not good for something or someone. I have often been told that it seems like don't enjoy myself, the little things (sunshine, presents, or whatever) and the company of others. I have to admit that I am not a very "open" person. I try to hide my feelings for some stupid reason which I don't even know sometimes. I usually don't show emotions, but that doesn't mean that I have none. I think that I have much stronger emotions that others it's just that I don't like to show them. I don't laugh that often, I don't cry, just all the things are going through my head all the time without letting them out.

I am how I am and I don't want to change the way just to fit in better or just to make other people happier. I wish it just would be so easy to say that, but sometimes i feel I have to change to be happy. I feel a bit alone and lost - even when being with (lots of) others. I basically have a good life. I have a good education, I have a job i basically like a lot and I have some kind of wealth. I do have friends - I don't see them often but I know they are there. and I know they like me for who I am. Everything should be fine. But it's not. As someone said: You can enjoy yourself, your success and your life much more when you have somebody to share it with. And that's what I'm missing at the moment. I am not trying hard to find someone, I just let things come by. Maybe this is just right, but maybe this too lazy. I don't know. I can just do what feels right for me.

I have my goals - and my dreams. And I honestly want to achieve them. Sooner or later. Even though in the past months life has been very hard I know I will be happy someday, but it' just hard waiting for the moment to come ... And that's where we are: Believe in yourself and others - and everything will be fine. I'm trying - that's all I can do.

Finally I have to say that the things I can offer are the things I am looking for - and that everybody should be looking for in others: Heart - Mind/Soul and Humour.

Being happy with yourself - being happy with others - hopefully this is the key. And all other things will automatically fall into place. Just don't give up hope - easily said - but just try.

It WILL work :thumbs:


PS: may have gotten a bit OT but i just needed to say...

 

[Danimal]

Ok first thing first Mr reak is this one of your crazy stories?

edit- Oh yeah well My life is exceedingly uneventful
my daily routine is go to school, come back do homework, play games go to sleep. Everyday until I just happen to go out in an odd occasion. There is simply nothing to do

mine:

Awaken - Eat meal - Schoolz0r - Home - Martial Art lesson - meal - sleep

Rinse and reapeat... Always repeat

 

[Gray Fox]

I feel a bit alone and lost - even when being with (lots of) others.

by tvharti

A lot of people feel most lonely among others, cause then they see how different they are and don't fit in. I feel the loneliest when I'm at school surrounded by my classmates.

 

[NeptuneUK]

playing guitar brings releif!

 

[Zerimski]

The thing about loneliness is you get used to it, and soon you will come to treasure it.

 

[AcousticToad]

My life in a few Words:

Wake up - 13:45pm, occasionally 14:24pm
Eat and do nothing till 17:35pm
Do nothing until 04:20am

Repeat. Depression/boredom/unemployment and being single is bliss. Therefor my life is about as eventful as a 58 year old corpse. Not to mention soon im just one step closer to death, or 40, which ever comes first.

 

[m00b]

Yes yes, I do live in USA, I became like that when I moved here. Than again, when I lived in Russia, I was a kid, kids always have fun, don’t they? I had lot’s of fun, now I am trying to do what most people do. I am part of the society, nothing I can do about. If I am not part of the society, I am an outcast that nobody likes, I hate to be like that. I like when people like me, it makes me happy, I am selfish like that. I guess I am still in “American Dream” mode, which I despise, but it’s the way I live for now, I hope to change it somehow, but without medicine, I don’t want swallow pills for the rest of my life.

Icarus, thank you, I guess. It’s funny, I don’t remember the last time I posted something serious, past summer all I did was laugh at people, make hilariously bad threads and troll. I got bored of that too.

Mr.Reak, I also moved to another country. I moved from Bosnia to Sweden because of the war we had. I was depressed a lot and felt emptyness for no known reason. Once I visited Bosnia after many years and got back to Sweden i felt MUCH better. It's like a got closure or something. Maybe you should visit your home town once you have the chance. Living in another country makes people feel bad. You have to be STRONG! Your girlfriend might leave you one day. You must be strong to live on your own and dont give sh*t what the world thinks. Be a MAN! Happyness isnt something someone else decides for you. It's peace you find inside yourself. It's the small things. Find something fun to do everyday. Have sex. Eat good food. Talk to people. Travel. Play games. I'm one that was in your situation. I survived and now I'm very stong. Fvck what anyone thinks. You decide whats important for you!! :cheers: