Life!

[Farrowlesparrow]

I've been wanting to make a huge post about life; my life and people relating to it. But I just don't have the motivation to really do it. So here's the abridged version.


I found out recently that my cousin's girlfriend has cancer. She's a few years younger than I and it makes me very sad.

I'm not sure what type of cancer it is. Everyone is kind of acting like it's no big deal, in the way that implies that they just don't want to think about how severe it is. Apparently they are going to try and operate on it.


Sadness isn't the only feeling this stirs up in me. It's rather a mixed bag I think. I'm sad that this girl's life will probably be hell for a while. I'm grateful that I'm alive and that I don't have to suffer this. I'm also incredibly... frustrated. This wouldn't be the first time I'd lost someone close this year. Not always through death, mind you. It's always largely been out of my hands.

I've decided that I mustn't let things get me down though. I've really been teetering on massive depression the last few weeks, and I've been struggling with some things for a year or so now. But no more. I know I'm riddling this with clichés, but I really do feel like there's this big world out there, and it's full of people to enjoy; they might all be mortal and flaky but that's just something I'll have to deal with.


Anyway, carry on.

 

[VirusType2]

Ah, well. Losing someone is one of the hardest things in life, but that's just how it is.

Even though she might not have a long life, she is here now; so try and enjoy it, and you do the same.

A lot of people say you don't truly live until you're dying.

 

[BabyHeadCrab]

I'm similarly changing a lot and coping with a great deal of loss (both metaphorically and in actuality). It's important to remember, for me at least, that you should consider your own priorities and emotional wellbeing the most important--regardless of the suffering of loved ones. It actually helps you be a more empathetic and giving person in the long run.

I've recently tapered off of all my depression/anxiety/ADHD drugs and things feel... vastly different. I don't quite know how to describe it other than most often complete and utter apathy and dread and the sensation of always being foggy headed (almost like a bad pot high every morning) along with forgetfulness and occasional anxiety bouts. Oddly enough though, I've been having hopeful and lovely nights here and there, and actually managed to get my final paper done last night for a difficult class.

Anywho, best wishes for your cousin's significant other, that's never easy to deal with and there's never an appropriate reaction to something that awful other than letting yourself be angry/upset/confused. Keep on keepin' on.

 

[Darkside55]

A lot of people say you don't truly live until you're dying.

Those people have never known anyone with cancer. At least not debilitating cancer.

Sorry about your cousin's gf, Farrow.

 

[VirusType2]

That's true, it is debilitating, and the treatment is as well.

I keep remembering that little girl who just wanted to watch the movie 'Up'. Really sad.

 

[Captain M4d]

The biggest death I had to deal with was of someone who was a friend and mentor to me. Before that, it was my two beloved cats of 15 years.

It's so weird to deal with any loss at all, especially when the last time you saw that person, they were alive and well.

I haven't really learned how to cope with the fact that someone is dying. My grandmother has reached near death many times, but I never took it quite seriously because she always seemed to pull through.

I think the best you can do is be the best to that person you have ever have. If you've already been good to them, continue to be good. Don't try to give them special treatment, but be sympathetic to whatever they may be going through.

 

[VirusType2]

Last week, I found out my Mom's sister has cancer.

My Mom's other sister died from cancer when I was about 12.


**** OFF, CANCER. JUST **** OFF.

 

[Tyguy]

if cancer could show itself in human form i'd punch it in the face

 

[Eejit]

Cancer is generally a natural cause of death, but it especially sucks when it affects the young.

Some kinds aren't a big deal though Farrow, esp. if it's caught early. Try not to assume the worst until you know more, maybe they're right.

 

[YROC]

I know a girl who's mother is in the hospital with cancer right now. I forget the type, but she's really sick.

Makes me feel real bad.

 

[Stigmata]

I lost my dad to cancer three and a half years ago.

I'm really sorry to hear that Farrow. Viper too. I hope they both can pull through.

 

[Viperidae]

I'm really sorry to hear that Farrow. Viper too.

For the last bloody time...

 

[Farrowlesparrow]

I was amused.

Update on the girl. It's some sort of glandular thing. I can't remember the name exactly, but I knew a woman who had it about 20 years ago. She had it operated on, and obviously survived, but one of her arms ballooned up to weird proportions.

So it's definitely operable, but it could result in some unfortunate results. Still, at least she's probably not going to die!

 

[Ravioli]

I hate cancer, it killed Bill Hicks.

 

[Shift]

I'm similarly changing a lot and coping with a great deal of loss (both metaphorically and in actuality). It's important to remember, for me at least, that you should consider your own priorities and emotional wellbeing the most important--regardless of the suffering of loved ones. It actually helps you be a more empathetic and giving person in the long run.

I've recently tapered off of all my depression/anxiety/ADHD drugs and things feel... vastly different. I don't quite know how to describe it other than most often complete and utter apathy and dread and the sensation of always being foggy headed (almost like a bad pot high every morning) along with forgetfulness and occasional anxiety bouts. Oddly enough though, I've been having hopeful and lovely nights here and there, and actually managed to get my final paper done last night for a difficult class.

Anywho, best wishes for your cousin's significant other, that's never easy to deal with and there's never an appropriate reaction to something that awful other than letting yourself be angry/upset/confused. Keep on keepin' on.

Yeah I know the feelings you are going through, anxiety can be a bitch and it never seems to go away, all you can do is just learn to live with it and control it. My case has been on and off for ages, but years back when it was REALLY bad, well just made me appreciate life so much more, so when I got through it, I had a massive urge to take on the world and make my life as amazing as possible.

I think my point is, life throws so much shit at you, but its basically the stuff that makes you who you are. Whatever doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, whether it be physically or just mentally.

 

[Shakermaker]

I was amused.

Update on the girl. It's some sort of glandular thing. I can't remember the name exactly, but I knew a woman who had it about 20 years ago. She had it operated on, and obviously survived, but one of her arms ballooned up to weird proportions.

So it's definitely operable, but it could result in some unfortunate results. Still, at least she's probably not going to die!

Is it Hodgkin's Lymphoma perhaps? If so, her chances should be good. That is one of the more curable kinds of cancer.

Still I understand your frustration. Not being able to exert any control over things like these is very annoying.

/huggles