Raziaar
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Okay, well I'm up at 4:20(****ING TIME ALWAYS SHOWS UP FOR ME!) in the morning typing this after getting home, so please ignore any spelling errors or whatever, as I am very sleepy.
I was thinking lately a bit on religion, and my relationship with it. Over the past few months I have grown more and more bitter against my religion. I have grown impatient and annoyed with the extremist Christians that make a bad name for themselves and their own religion, ending up alienating people from it in the process. It's not even so much that, it's moderate Christians as well. I roll my eyes mentally when I hear them talking about good virtues and things that people shouldn't do... things that I myself don't really have a problem with, such as homosexuality or abortion, etc.
I guess I'm sort of growing more distant from my religion, straying away to my own path of self religion where it's just me and my beliefs, which in a way is where it's always been. I'm even finding myself less and less religious, at least from a Christian standpoint. However, I am not really bothered anymore when Christians tell me that I'm being un-christian like because I'm not following the bible, yadda yadda, or non-christians who are trying to goad me by saying the same thing, that I'm going to hell because I'm not following "what it means to be a christian". I'm sort of... well I don't know exactly how to put it, but 'nonchalant' works nicely for the moment.
People could even go so far as to say I'm starting to exhibit a lot of athiest traits and beliefs. However, I don't really find myself wishing to jump and cling to that label. Why? I don't know... but I do know that it'll do nothing for me. It's not like it'll change anything if I suddenly start calling myself athiest, or leaning towards athiest tendencies.
I do still have religious beliefs. I believe in a god, but a lot of that stems from my chidhood as it was engrained into me... not by my parents or society, but as myself. I nurtured that little seed of religion that my mother planted in me when I was very young, and it sort of grew and grew from there. I don't think it will ever change. I'm going to consider myself religious probably, at least in some extents, even though I might think it's silly or if other people ridicule me about it. Why? I guess the biggest reason is that there's some sort of comfort derived from that. It's the way I've always been since as long as I can remember... being religious, considering myself a christian. A 'badge' from my childhood, even if it has been tarnished and uncared for for so long.
So before I just ramble endlessly on which it feels like I'm doing, I just want to ask. Is it bad that I walk down this middle road, between religion and lack of religion? Is it some sort of big deal if somebody doesn't want to label himself an athiest or agnostic if he tends to be leaning that way a lot? Is it foolish to still have some religious beliefs even if those beliefs no longer impact or affect your life in pretty much any way, shape, or form, and you keep them as a comfort from childhood or young adulthood?
I don't really have a desire to discard my religious beliefs, because I don't think it'll have any effect on my life. I am not so eager to apply labels to myself anymore, as other people tend to do, uniting themselves under the banner of Athiesm, or as a Christian because of the annoyance I have been having lately at the things religious people are doing.
Hmm... okay this is the end. Lastly I want to ask, what the **** did I just talk about? Because it seems like a huge, sleepy ramble and not making much sense. I'll probably wake up and regret even writing it in the morning.
I was thinking lately a bit on religion, and my relationship with it. Over the past few months I have grown more and more bitter against my religion. I have grown impatient and annoyed with the extremist Christians that make a bad name for themselves and their own religion, ending up alienating people from it in the process. It's not even so much that, it's moderate Christians as well. I roll my eyes mentally when I hear them talking about good virtues and things that people shouldn't do... things that I myself don't really have a problem with, such as homosexuality or abortion, etc.
I guess I'm sort of growing more distant from my religion, straying away to my own path of self religion where it's just me and my beliefs, which in a way is where it's always been. I'm even finding myself less and less religious, at least from a Christian standpoint. However, I am not really bothered anymore when Christians tell me that I'm being un-christian like because I'm not following the bible, yadda yadda, or non-christians who are trying to goad me by saying the same thing, that I'm going to hell because I'm not following "what it means to be a christian". I'm sort of... well I don't know exactly how to put it, but 'nonchalant' works nicely for the moment.
People could even go so far as to say I'm starting to exhibit a lot of athiest traits and beliefs. However, I don't really find myself wishing to jump and cling to that label. Why? I don't know... but I do know that it'll do nothing for me. It's not like it'll change anything if I suddenly start calling myself athiest, or leaning towards athiest tendencies.
I do still have religious beliefs. I believe in a god, but a lot of that stems from my chidhood as it was engrained into me... not by my parents or society, but as myself. I nurtured that little seed of religion that my mother planted in me when I was very young, and it sort of grew and grew from there. I don't think it will ever change. I'm going to consider myself religious probably, at least in some extents, even though I might think it's silly or if other people ridicule me about it. Why? I guess the biggest reason is that there's some sort of comfort derived from that. It's the way I've always been since as long as I can remember... being religious, considering myself a christian. A 'badge' from my childhood, even if it has been tarnished and uncared for for so long.
So before I just ramble endlessly on which it feels like I'm doing, I just want to ask. Is it bad that I walk down this middle road, between religion and lack of religion? Is it some sort of big deal if somebody doesn't want to label himself an athiest or agnostic if he tends to be leaning that way a lot? Is it foolish to still have some religious beliefs even if those beliefs no longer impact or affect your life in pretty much any way, shape, or form, and you keep them as a comfort from childhood or young adulthood?
I don't really have a desire to discard my religious beliefs, because I don't think it'll have any effect on my life. I am not so eager to apply labels to myself anymore, as other people tend to do, uniting themselves under the banner of Athiesm, or as a Christian because of the annoyance I have been having lately at the things religious people are doing.
Hmm... okay this is the end. Lastly I want to ask, what the **** did I just talk about? Because it seems like a huge, sleepy ramble and not making much sense. I'll probably wake up and regret even writing it in the morning.