So she's gone.

[RakuraiTenjin]

Mary is my best friend. I don't think I can stress this enough. And I really love her (Well, tricky to say, not 'in love' with her like you would be with a relationship, but for Christ's sake I love her a lot)

This weekend we were at a party for my friend Jason and Jose's birthday and she got pretty drunk. I guess her sister and brother in law, who she lives with, told her not to. Surprise they show up and take her home from the party. They tell her that on Sunday, 7AM, she's got a plane ticket back to Idaho (she's lived here the past 4 years for high school.) She's got a good job for a young person, working at an insurance agency who are training her (for FREE) and everything to become an agent. She goes to school and is graduating. She was accepted to Devry Tech School just last month. This isn't a loser we're talking about or someone where any partying was seriously affecting her for the worse. She's 18.

But they can send her back because some of the more vital things they pay for. She lives under their roof. She can't really move out because she's not financially stable enough and she's not stupid that she'd try to do it. She only has a couple thousand in the bank which is meant for college issues and can't just be wasted away lest it ruin her life.

And now she's gone. She left at 7AM. I didn't even get to see her before she left. I just lost my best friend. I don't even know what to do. They took away her phone because they pay for it, but they let her call me and talk to me for a few minutes last night. It hurts a lot.

I don't know what to do.

 

[Qonfused]

I sympathize for you, but what's with all the relationship threads lately?

 

[Blackghost905]

Sorry about your loss try and cheer up!

 

[CrazyHarij]

I sympathize for you, but what's with all the relationship threads lately?

It's christmas, the season of heartbreaks.

 

[Adabiviak]

Find her online. I've friends that I keep close despite the distance via the Internet. Occasionally I get to visit them, we go on a road trip together, whatever. Don't let that friendship die because she lives farther away.

 

[RakuraiTenjin]

These have been the worst two years of my life. I can honestly say that. There hasn't been good in so long. I hate it here. I only have a while left until I can leave for college. I don't want to leave my parents, I really love them and it's not their fault (The other stuff that's bad the past two years) But I just have to get away from here. Nothing's ever right, and nothing ever stays stable.

Find her online. I've friends that I keep close despite the distance via the Internet. Occasionally I get to visit them, we go on a road trip together, whatever. Don't let that friendship die because she lives farther away.

Definately but still...


Damn I have to tell everyone else. God.

 

[evil^milk]

adabiviak ftw

edit: what else has been wrong where you live in?

 

[xLostx]

post this on myspace and listen to The Used to heal your emo soul.

 

[RakuraiTenjin]

adabiviak ftw

edit: what else has been wrong where you live in?

Relatives with lots of problems now living nearby due to Hurricane Katrina destroying their home in New Orleans

Issues with my nephews, one with major behavioral problems and the other deaf and mildly retarded.

Issue with my sister, who if I had the chance to kill without any repurcussions I would. That sounds horrible and you say "if you were put in that situation you would think differently" but no, I have a great want to cease her life.

My parents always fighting, because of the issue with my sister and nephews. We have taken them in and we're all they ever had, but it's basically destroyed my parents lives because they're stuck raising these kids until they grow up, if they give them to the state they either go back to my crackhead sister or just stuck in a system with no one to love them.

My best friend the person who I can talk to about everything and usually do for hours every night is gone now.

 

[Solaris]

Relatives with lots of problems now living nearby due to Hurricane Katrina destroying their home in New Orleans

Issues with my nephews, one with major behavioral problems and the other deaf and mildly retarded.

Issue with my sister, who if I had the chance to kill without any repurcussions I would. That sounds horrible and you say "if you were put in that situation you would think differently" but no, I have a great want to cease her life.

My parents always fighting, because of the issue with my sister and nephews. We have taken them in and we're all they ever had, but it's basically destroyed my parents lives because they're stuck raising these kids until they grow up, if they give them to the state they either go back to my crackhead sister or just stuck in a system with no one to love them.

My best friend the person who I can talk to about everything and usually do for hours every night is gone now.

God that must really suck.
Hang in there, you'll be leaving soon (youre 17 arn't yoy?).

 

[RakuraiTenjin]

God that must really suck.
Hang in there, you'll be leaving soon (youre 17 arn't yoy?).

Yeah. It's hard to explain. I know a lot of people my age who are eager to move out will tell you "Oh, I can't wait to be on my own. I'm so ready."

I'm not really eager for that. It's a LOT of responsibility. But I feel like I HAVE to. I have to or I'm going to lose my mind, because I can't take it anymore, and I don't know who to confide in anymore.

 

[Adrien C]

Hold on man, hold on, it's been the same shit this way to. All I can say is hold on. I've been living out of my home country for 7 years now. 3 years has passed since I have touched my beatifull country. Only 1 more year and I leave for the marines.

 

[RakuraiTenjin]

Hold on man, hold on, it's been the same shit this way to. All I can say is hold on. I've been living out of my home country for 7 years now. 3 years has passed since I have touched my beatifull country. Only 1 more year and I leave for the marines.

I seriously can't imagine man. You're tougher than me.

With all this though, you mention the marines it reminds me, because I've got my ROTC planned through college at ASU for the Air Force before they commission me after I graduate. I just feel like enlisting now though after I graduate high school, not even sure anymore.

 

[StardogChampion]

post this on myspace and listen to The Used to heal your emo soul.

Got to agree.