hydrometeor
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Thanks for listening guys, advice would be nice, but don't judge me ok?
Well anyways, let me start...
Mmm well living here with Greg is ok, really. I love this guy so much, love as in as a friend. There's only one bed here so we have to sleep together which doesn't seem to bother him any, but me, god it making me krazy cause we both sleep naked. I no he's testing me, he has to be I swear. Were lying in bed last night and out of no where he's asking me if I'm hard, like he's been tickling me for twenty minutes which means he touching me and yes I was hard, like very hard but I wasn't going to admit it so I said no and he's laughing but he new I was so he's like " Oh really, I would have bet you are" I'm like no I'm not now leave me alone, that didn't work at all and he's like " how come you get hard just cause I was tickling you" omg like what do I all say. He knows damn well why. It just got funnier from there cause I was getting embarrassed and he new that to but he loves doing that to me I swear just to make me mental. That's all I'm saying about that here.
Hutch on the other hand, damn more I'm with him the more I feel I'm his, strange cause never felt like this to someone before, new feeling and not to sure how to respond to myself let along him. He's just so good to me an like so much being with him. He's different from all the rest, god what am I saying "all the rest" ugh, I find my self thinking about him more and more, wondering If he's going to be there for me when I get in trouble at school, well not at school but out side it I guess. I no Greg will but that's different, he for what ever reason just is there even when I don't want him to be. LeAnn thinks T Pac hired him to look out for me, ya right. Mmm who knows to confusing for me right now, I'm a wreck just trying to get thru the days with out freaking out. Still haven't taken the meds. I don't like the way I am with them in my system. He's going to be pissed when he finds out I haven't taken them again. This time I didn't even fill the prescription.
Samuel, LeAnn and Sue dragged me all over the city today looking for things both for me and for the two of them for college. Between Hutch's parents who have money and EJ and all he has I don't know what else we need but we must have gone to 50 stores looking and its hot here.
Caught up with Hutch round four and the two of us went off for a while to one of the rooms over the other club. Leave that at that.
Well went to rent a truck to get all the furnisher to RI but have to be 25 to rent one so that sucks. We have a lot of stuff so need one I think, Hutches dad wants to rent a trailer but no way, to small. Right now I guess EJ's brother is going to get us one, he's 27, course no Idea who's going to drive it. All Hutch could say was " no sweat I'll think of something". Last time I let someone tell me not to worry about it I was 16 and we wind up on the guard rails, like crashed into them on the NJ turnpike at 3am then the police station scared to death they'll find out I'm a state kid that took off from the fosters I was living with, and I'm with two twenty two yr old druggies, he get arrested, No license, no registration, wrong plates for the truck ( asshole took them off a trailer) duh, I wind up in a motel with his girl friend for the night and her beating on me in the shower cause she's high and wants money, ugh.
Another time I just didn't have the common sense to no that whole trip was wrong.
Have to go meet two guys Saturday for RC, no problem, it's here in Atlanta the next week in Miami for three days. MMM have to blow off the shrink again.
Ok 10 pm and going with Samuel and Hutch to the teen gay club, it's strip night then RC wants us to come the other club and I'm sure Samuel and me will have some fun for a few guys upstairs.
More later, I guess.
Well anyways, let me start...
Mmm well living here with Greg is ok, really. I love this guy so much, love as in as a friend. There's only one bed here so we have to sleep together which doesn't seem to bother him any, but me, god it making me krazy cause we both sleep naked. I no he's testing me, he has to be I swear. Were lying in bed last night and out of no where he's asking me if I'm hard, like he's been tickling me for twenty minutes which means he touching me and yes I was hard, like very hard but I wasn't going to admit it so I said no and he's laughing but he new I was so he's like " Oh really, I would have bet you are" I'm like no I'm not now leave me alone, that didn't work at all and he's like " how come you get hard just cause I was tickling you" omg like what do I all say. He knows damn well why. It just got funnier from there cause I was getting embarrassed and he new that to but he loves doing that to me I swear just to make me mental. That's all I'm saying about that here.
Hutch on the other hand, damn more I'm with him the more I feel I'm his, strange cause never felt like this to someone before, new feeling and not to sure how to respond to myself let along him. He's just so good to me an like so much being with him. He's different from all the rest, god what am I saying "all the rest" ugh, I find my self thinking about him more and more, wondering If he's going to be there for me when I get in trouble at school, well not at school but out side it I guess. I no Greg will but that's different, he for what ever reason just is there even when I don't want him to be. LeAnn thinks T Pac hired him to look out for me, ya right. Mmm who knows to confusing for me right now, I'm a wreck just trying to get thru the days with out freaking out. Still haven't taken the meds. I don't like the way I am with them in my system. He's going to be pissed when he finds out I haven't taken them again. This time I didn't even fill the prescription.
Samuel, LeAnn and Sue dragged me all over the city today looking for things both for me and for the two of them for college. Between Hutch's parents who have money and EJ and all he has I don't know what else we need but we must have gone to 50 stores looking and its hot here.
Caught up with Hutch round four and the two of us went off for a while to one of the rooms over the other club. Leave that at that.
Well went to rent a truck to get all the furnisher to RI but have to be 25 to rent one so that sucks. We have a lot of stuff so need one I think, Hutches dad wants to rent a trailer but no way, to small. Right now I guess EJ's brother is going to get us one, he's 27, course no Idea who's going to drive it. All Hutch could say was " no sweat I'll think of something". Last time I let someone tell me not to worry about it I was 16 and we wind up on the guard rails, like crashed into them on the NJ turnpike at 3am then the police station scared to death they'll find out I'm a state kid that took off from the fosters I was living with, and I'm with two twenty two yr old druggies, he get arrested, No license, no registration, wrong plates for the truck ( asshole took them off a trailer) duh, I wind up in a motel with his girl friend for the night and her beating on me in the shower cause she's high and wants money, ugh.
Another time I just didn't have the common sense to no that whole trip was wrong.
Have to go meet two guys Saturday for RC, no problem, it's here in Atlanta the next week in Miami for three days. MMM have to blow off the shrink again.
Ok 10 pm and going with Samuel and Hutch to the teen gay club, it's strip night then RC wants us to come the other club and I'm sure Samuel and me will have some fun for a few guys upstairs.
More later, I guess.
