lame-o
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I'm just venting here...
Dungeons and Dragons. I know my friends aren't interested in it, but yet they keep telling me that "we should play D&D! You should DM for us because you know the rules way more than we do!" which always really confuses me. They won't bother buy the rulebooks or even read the rules. They don't talk about it, they don't really care about it, but they know that I'm interested in it and so they decide to humor me? I have no clue.
When we do play (because I'm always willing) the game sucks because they're not into it and they don't really want to play. I tell them to at least read the Player's Handbook if they want to have fun, because otherwise they're just attempting to play Poker without knowing the rules. Like they're just throwing down cards but they have no idea what to do with them so they make up shit and call it Poker. It just doesn't work, it's not fun. I repeatedly tell them that, and they always say "ok, lol" then a day later they say they want to play D&D again, and I already know they haven't read the rules.
I've read the rulebooks, but I've never played a real game of D&D so I'm not really in a great position to be able to teach a newbie who has never read the rules and understood the game - even though I try, and I elevate the game to a bearable level, I roleplay, give them interesting encounters, tell them what skills to use, which dice to roll, and I give them tips and hints on playing, but it's not what it should be because the players might as well not be there. They don't put their actions within the story, they just say "I attack this thing, okay so what do I roll?" I can tell they're not having much fun. Everyone looks bored and they always decide to quit before they get anywhere. I'd have more fulfilling games playing with myself.
So then why do they keep asking me to DM for them? Why do they keep talking about it as though it's great? They've never played it. Most games get about 1/10th of the way through an adventure before everyone gets bored and they decide to go upstairs and play video games. I'm left sitting there wondering: "what the **** was that?". After a few hours they want to play again. I'm still thinking "what in the **** are these people trying to do?" and I make excuses to not play again because if we did then we'd all have to suffer through all that shit, AGAIN. I guess it's stupid that I'm always willing to give it another chance with them after a few weeks of trying to forget the mess that the previous attempt was, though.
I'm always the guy who is alienated and left alone to think "what the ****?" I'm there as the the crux that has no purpose.
As soon as what I do gets a little uncomfortable for them they ditch me. And I have to act awkwardly as though that's the way it should be. So when I tell my friends that I want to have a smoke outside, no-one says "alright I'll come with you", they all kind of say "uhh... ok" and try to change the subject, and I go outside to smoke my cigarette alone. They watch me from inside and talk about video games.
It's like this for everything. Drinking, drugs, D&D, music, movies, ideas, etc. The only thing I can relate to with the those guys is a general appreciation for games and my hate of school work. If I want to go and do other things, I have to find people who I relate to in a specific way. Otherwise I'm an outcast, it's too uncomfortable for people if I do something they don't. So partying = one set of friends, gaming = second set, reveling in being smart and having intellectual discussions = third set, and being human = another set (except I haven't found anyone for that).
I haven't met anyone that I could just be around and be at ease, not since I was a kid. Now I usually feel like I'm hurting someone, or that they are just putting up with me, or it seems like they're afraid of something. I don't know what it is, it's like they understand exactly what's happening but they pretend not to, and they're afraid to cause a shit storm or to feel bad about something.
Why isn't anyone honest with me? Surely I must piss someone off through the way I act, I am imposing in nature. But I never hear anything, no real criticism of my actions. Any criticism I do get is unrelated... like jokingly saying to me "wow you're so gay, lol" That's the extent that people care about me. Or are people just too afraid to tell me what they think? Of course people will tell you what they think in the clear cut cases like pedophiles and rapists "You're a bad person for having sex with children! Change your ways!" But most cases aren't that simple.
And that's my general experience with people... I pretty much don't have any hope anymore.
Dungeons and Dragons. I know my friends aren't interested in it, but yet they keep telling me that "we should play D&D! You should DM for us because you know the rules way more than we do!" which always really confuses me. They won't bother buy the rulebooks or even read the rules. They don't talk about it, they don't really care about it, but they know that I'm interested in it and so they decide to humor me? I have no clue.
When we do play (because I'm always willing) the game sucks because they're not into it and they don't really want to play. I tell them to at least read the Player's Handbook if they want to have fun, because otherwise they're just attempting to play Poker without knowing the rules. Like they're just throwing down cards but they have no idea what to do with them so they make up shit and call it Poker. It just doesn't work, it's not fun. I repeatedly tell them that, and they always say "ok, lol" then a day later they say they want to play D&D again, and I already know they haven't read the rules.
I've read the rulebooks, but I've never played a real game of D&D so I'm not really in a great position to be able to teach a newbie who has never read the rules and understood the game - even though I try, and I elevate the game to a bearable level, I roleplay, give them interesting encounters, tell them what skills to use, which dice to roll, and I give them tips and hints on playing, but it's not what it should be because the players might as well not be there. They don't put their actions within the story, they just say "I attack this thing, okay so what do I roll?" I can tell they're not having much fun. Everyone looks bored and they always decide to quit before they get anywhere. I'd have more fulfilling games playing with myself.
So then why do they keep asking me to DM for them? Why do they keep talking about it as though it's great? They've never played it. Most games get about 1/10th of the way through an adventure before everyone gets bored and they decide to go upstairs and play video games. I'm left sitting there wondering: "what the **** was that?". After a few hours they want to play again. I'm still thinking "what in the **** are these people trying to do?" and I make excuses to not play again because if we did then we'd all have to suffer through all that shit, AGAIN. I guess it's stupid that I'm always willing to give it another chance with them after a few weeks of trying to forget the mess that the previous attempt was, though.
I'm always the guy who is alienated and left alone to think "what the ****?" I'm there as the the crux that has no purpose.
As soon as what I do gets a little uncomfortable for them they ditch me. And I have to act awkwardly as though that's the way it should be. So when I tell my friends that I want to have a smoke outside, no-one says "alright I'll come with you", they all kind of say "uhh... ok" and try to change the subject, and I go outside to smoke my cigarette alone. They watch me from inside and talk about video games.
It's like this for everything. Drinking, drugs, D&D, music, movies, ideas, etc. The only thing I can relate to with the those guys is a general appreciation for games and my hate of school work. If I want to go and do other things, I have to find people who I relate to in a specific way. Otherwise I'm an outcast, it's too uncomfortable for people if I do something they don't. So partying = one set of friends, gaming = second set, reveling in being smart and having intellectual discussions = third set, and being human = another set (except I haven't found anyone for that).
I haven't met anyone that I could just be around and be at ease, not since I was a kid. Now I usually feel like I'm hurting someone, or that they are just putting up with me, or it seems like they're afraid of something. I don't know what it is, it's like they understand exactly what's happening but they pretend not to, and they're afraid to cause a shit storm or to feel bad about something.
Why isn't anyone honest with me? Surely I must piss someone off through the way I act, I am imposing in nature. But I never hear anything, no real criticism of my actions. Any criticism I do get is unrelated... like jokingly saying to me "wow you're so gay, lol" That's the extent that people care about me. Or are people just too afraid to tell me what they think? Of course people will tell you what they think in the clear cut cases like pedophiles and rapists "You're a bad person for having sex with children! Change your ways!" But most cases aren't that simple.
And that's my general experience with people... I pretty much don't have any hope anymore.
