WHY THE ****

[sinkoman]

DOES EVERYTHING GO DOWNHILL ONCE YOU GRADUATE HIGHSCHOOL?

Seriously, every single day I wake up, I ask myself "why am I on this earth? What purpose do I serve in this universe? What am I looking for, and when will I find it?"

I thought that when I moved, maybe my life would pick up some steam. That going to school would give me a purpose, and new scenery would refresh me entirely. God damn did it ever go exactly opposite.

I know i'm not the only one who feels this way. Come on, own up people.

 

[Darkside55]

High school was shit, bro.

 

[Barnz]

welcome to the second level

 

[VirusType2]

Do some cool shit, then die.

Da Vinci:

Leonardo di ser Piero da Vinci (April 15, 1452 – May 2, 1519) was an Italian polymath, scientist, mathematician, engineer, inventor, anatomist, painter, sculptor, architect, botanist, musician and writer. Leonardo has often been described as the archetype of the Renaissance man, a man whose unquenchable curiosity was equaled only by his powers of invention. He is widely considered to be one of the greatest painters of all time and perhaps the most diversely talented person ever to have lived.

 

[sinkoman]

High school was shit, bro.

I can't say that I share this sentiment. yeah, highschool was shit, but everything afterwards is even more shit. I'm so bored with life already, and I haven't even experienced half of what it has to offer.

 

[Darkside55]

You live in SF now. You have no excuse for not going out and experiencing life. There is ALWAYS shit going on.

 

[15357]

I dunno, I'm kinda in a limbo. I've got like a month before graduating from high school, but already have been accepted into university, so therefore have nothing to do, so I spend my days playing games and walking my dog and sleeping. It's disconcerting.



Ah but the glory days of high school. It sucked. I felt that there was no purpose for me. I didn't want to do anything. All my efforts seemed to be for something that I didn't even know what it was. I had no dreams, at least ones that I was capable of acheiving.

I still don't, though. Although I'm not as bothered by it at the moment.


But sometimes, I lay awake in bed, wondering what university has in store for me, and wondering if ever I will be able to achieve something, and take my place in the manifest destiny of this country.

****.

 

[MuToiD_MaN]

My life started at about 24.

 

[sinkoman]

You live in SF now. You have no excuse for not going out and experiencing life. There is ALWAYS shit going on.

That's the thing. I go out and do shit, all the time (kinda), and sure, it's fun and life seems beautiful when somethings going down. I'm no party meister, but I get shit done.

But then everything calms down and once again, it's like "where the **** am I going with this shit?"

 

[VirusType2]

I think that without obsessions, life isn't very rewarding for a single man. What are your interests?

You seem to be interested in bikes. When I was an early teen, I saved up and about once a month, I bought all kinds of specialized parts and built my own bike from scratch. Started with the perfect frame, then added the best cranks, the perfect sprocket, etc.

when I started driving, I sold it for a shit-load of money.

 

[sinkoman]

I think that without obsessions, life isn't very rewarding for a single man. What are your interests?

I ride BMX obsessively. That's seriously all I do. It takes my mind off of shit, but you can't ride all day...

 

[Dog--]

Well atleast you didn't take a year off... I did and I've literally lost all my friends because I never see them where I would be at school.. (although most of them left for university ) I sleep all day, go to work some days, and party on weekends with people I hardly ever see anymore.. Shit sucks, I've got until NEXT SEPTEMBER of this bullshit until I go to college.. Someone is always in the same position as you, and it sucks.

You ride BMX to take your mind off it? I play music and study.. Atleast we got something to take our minds of it for atleast a short time, eh?

 

[Darkside55]

Maybe you need some other kind of outlet if you're feeling unfulfilled with what you're currently doing, or at least find something to fill in the gaps.

 

[VirusType2]

How about setting up a nice big aquarium for tropical fish? Not only can it be beautiful, but the creatures can be quite interesting. Buy a new fish every month or whatever. I highly recommend keeping ornamental fish, it's a great hobby. Or you could go another route and get piranhas. You may have to buy them out of state.

Collecting things in general is a great obsession.

 

[sinkoman]

How about setting up a nice big aquarium for tropical fish? Not only can it be beautiful, but the creatures can be quite interesting. Buy a new fish every month or whatever. I highly recommend keeping ornamental fish, it's a great hobby. Or you could go another route and get piranhas. You may have to buy them out of state.

Collecting things in general is a great obsession.

I deff like this idea. A lot!

I really want a cat, or maybe a dog, but I don't think that'd fly well with my Aunt... Fish could deff work though.

Maybe you need some other kind of outlet if you're feeling unfulfilled with what you're currently doing, or at least find something to fill in the gaps.

I seriously think I need some other kind of people. I miss how tight nit and chill everything worked out to be with friends at home.

 

[Barnz]

get this: http://www.halflife2.net/forums/showthread.php?t=162703
and start modding
it's the best hobby you can find on earth

 

[Darkside55]

How about setting up a nice big aquarium for tropical fish? Not only can it be beautiful, but the creatures can be quite interesting. Buy a new fish every month or whatever.

Get fighting fish. Have them duel to the death to facilitate you having to buy a new fish every month.

 

[ktimekiller]

I too find it very uninteresting since the shithole that was called high school

 

[mortiz-Redux]

life is never as good as when you were a kid.

 

[Jerry_111]

Wow, the responses to this thread seem to be fairly good natured and non-sarcastic/snarky, color me surprised.

I'm in college right now but I'm sure I'll be feeling the same way once this thing is over.

 

[sinkoman]

life is never as good as when you were a kid.

Truth man. I miss that period of time from 0-12 where I didn't give a **** about anything, and just enjoyed life entirely.

Wow, the responses to this thread seem to be fairly good natured and non-sarcastic/snarky, color me surprised.

I'm in college right now but I'm sure I'll be feeling the same way once this thing is over.

Postcount, bitch

 

[Insano]

Uni ****ings owns!

 

[Moto]

I feel pretty much the same. I miss how I was "just a kid" when I was in high school and nothing else was really expected of me. I had friends that I saw every day and had meaningful connections with, I always had something to do, and I felt pretty happy about everything. I even knew what I wanted to study in college and I was very enthusiastic about it.

Now I'm 20 and I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I have a 4.0 GPA in college, but I'd trade that away right now just to have a genuine interest in one subject. As it is, I feel completely unenthusiastic about everything. I can't picture myself ever finishing because I can't find anything I can stand for more than a couple weeks. I was studying business economics for a year and a half quite contently, but abruptly lost all interest.

Ever since then, I've been working on mathematics, but I feel like I've reached my limit with it. I tried engineering since it isn't as mathematically demanding as pure mathematics, but I'm just shit with chemistry and technical drawing, so that won't work either. I'm bored to death with liberal arts, so I can't go down that road. I feel so trapped.

I currently have absolutely no personal contact with my friends from high school. I actually have no desire to talk to any of them. In fact, the idea of talking to any of them seems horrible to me. Conversations with them have seemed so forced and awkward ever since graduation. Nobody is the same anymore. I haven't made anything more than acquaintances in college. I have no social life at all. I've actually become somewhat of a misanthrope which is the total opposite of my high school self. I can't relate to people my age anymore. I don't want to talk to or get to know anyone at school. I'd much rather be alone.

Right now I'm taking a one semester break from school and working with my dad when he needs my help. My parents aren't pressuring me to move out, but I can't help but feel like they don't want me here anymore. I guess it's just natural for a 20-year-old to get that feeling. For me, adulthood, or at least the first couple years of it, is depressing and meaningless. The only things keeping me sane are working on this project motocross bike I have in the garage and holding on to the idea that this is only temporary. Things will get better eventually. I'm a lucky guy overall and things could be far worse.

 

[lame-o]

I thought university was going to be awesome too, and I had planned everything in Canada; I'd go to SFU, rent my friend's basement, buy a kickass laptop from Newegg, hang out with my old high school friends every weekend, find new people at school who shared my views on life and would possibly want to start a band with me, etc. ** I'd finally move away from my parents and completely enjoy the splendors of Vancouver with my friends! **

What actually happened was this: My parents thought it would be better for me if I went to Poland with them and study there so they could help me out since they were afraid of me staying in Canada all alone (they plan to move to Poland asap) so about a week before my classes at SFU started they put me on a plane to live with my extended family. Now, I'm going to the Wroclaw University of Technology, I'm living in my grandparents' basement which looks like a communistic cellar, the beautiful laptop from Newegg wouldn't ship in time for my exodus from Canada so my parents canceled the order and bought me a generic HP at BestBuy, all my old friends are pretty much over me, and I haven't met anyone at uni (I'm in an international program) to connect with - they're all either non-native english speakers who ONLY stick with the people from their own country, or they're much older than me, or generally uninteresting. Also, I highly doubt I'm going to pass this semester, since uni in Poland is A ****LOAD harder than uni in Canada.

Oh yeah, and when I said my parents wanted me to study here so they can help me out since they were moving to Poland too, well it turns out that they're still in Canada and will be until this Summer. So the whole point which made this all make some kind of sense (since if I stayed in Canada I'd be alone and have to deal with everything with my parents 2000 km away) turned out to be TOTAL BULLSHIT.

Now I'm not a very likable person, people generally stay away from me, and I'm pretty much getting ass raped by everything that can ass rape me - even the people who say "oh it's not so bad, at least you're not starving to death." Those people who completely denounce the significance of my life problems, just make me even more depressed.

Thank you very much.

 

[Sulkdodds]

What the ****? How did it come to be that your parents get to choose what university you go to?

I suppose it's their money, but it seems rather a dick move.

 

[lame-o]

Now I've told them I want to study in Canada next year, since I've given up the fight with them this year, and they're telling me that they're disappointed with me and won't agree to it. gg.

 

[VirusType2]

life is never as good as when you were a kid.

I think it's more 'rose tinted glasses' than anything.

It's kind of strange, I was just thinking about this yesterday, how being a kid was better, then I thought a little harder. In my opinion, it was only better for the fact that things that don't interest me anymore, interested me then.

So, in other words, I've lost interest in things that were important to me then, and some of them are hard to replace. Video games, playing with toys, riding bikes and skateboards. What can I do as an adult, to replace some kick ass shit like that? At least I've got pron.

 

[Tyguy]

have you tried masturbation? it's a work-out, a stress reliever, and it feels great when you ejaculate.

 

[jet_porkins]

What's with all wrist-slashing?

My life is awesome.

 

[Wanted Bob]

Man, being a kid had its perks, and there are some things I miss dearly about the carefree attitude, but university has totally been worth it to me.

Its a ton of work, but I am actually learning stuff that interests me and that I want to have a career in.

 

[sinkoman]

I think it's more 'rose tinted glasses' than anything.

It's kind of strange, I was just thinking about this yesterday, how being a kid was better, then I thought a little harder. In my opinion, it was only better for the fact that things that don't interest me anymore, interested me then.

So, in other words, I've lost interest in things that were important to me then, and some of them are hard to replace. Video games, playing with toys, riding bikes and skateboards. What can I do as an adult, to replace some kick ass shit like that? At least I've got pron.

The thing is though, that when you're a kid, you value your absolute capabilities far more than anything else, and thusly think being a "grown up kid" is way cooler.

And then you get older and realize the only thing that matters is how happy you are.

It's like a sick, sick joke

What's with all wrist-slashing?

My life is awesome.

No wrist slashing here. I mean, i'm depressed about it, but not "emo" over it. It's kinda just a reflection of how much shit gets turned upside down.

My life is absolutely awesome too. I know some cool people, see some really amazing things happen every day, live in an awesome place, and get ****ed up on a daily basis. I just wonder what the point of it all is. It's easy to look at your life and say it's awesome, but to really believe it's awesome is a whole nother story.

 

[No Limit]

Life has it's ups and downs, you should have figured this out already.

But **** high school. In high school I didn't have my own car, didn't have my own place to live, didn't have any money, and I had to be home by 11. Not to mention girls weren't very open to things back then. And if you aren't having fun in college you're doing something wrong; figure it out what that is so you don't miss out.

 

[Slacker]

I'm in College now, and kind of in limbo too. I have a lot of work that I don't really feel like doing because it doesn't interest me- it's all pre-req shit for what I ACTUALLY want to do. I'm awful at even feigning interest if something doesn't peak my attention, so this can kind of be a problem. Fortanetly since the classes ARE all pre-req, I can BS them like I did in high school. I just want things to pick up, and I want to get a general sense of direction.

 

[13LACKBISHOP]

I have to get up at 8 and be there by nine and its a really crappy walk to school and when I get there all I do is go to shi&&y lessons that are utterly boring then when I am home I get a few hours of tekken then revison then bedtime. What a load of absolute shite! It gets worse? Well isnt that just great!

 

[Qonfused]

I feel pretty much the same. I miss how I was "just a kid" when I was in high school and nothing else was really expected of me. I had friends that I saw every day and had meaningful connections with, I always had something to do, and I felt pretty happy about everything. I even knew what I wanted to study in college and I was very enthusiastic about it.

Now I'm 20 and I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I have a 4.0 GPA in college, but I'd trade that away right now just to have a genuine interest in one subject. As it is, I feel completely unenthusiastic about everything. I can't picture myself ever finishing because I can't find anything I can stand for more than a couple weeks. I was studying business economics for a year and a half quite contently, but abruptly lost all interest.

Ever since then, I've been working on mathematics, but I feel like I've reached my limit with it. I tried engineering since it isn't as mathematically demanding as pure mathematics, but I'm just shit with chemistry and technical drawing, so that won't work either. I'm bored to death with liberal arts, so I can't go down that road. I feel so trapped.

I currently have absolutely no personal contact with my friends from high school. I actually have no desire to talk to any of them. In fact, the idea of talking to any of them seems horrible to me. Conversations with them have seemed so forced and awkward ever since graduation. Nobody is the same anymore. I haven't made anything more than acquaintances in college. I have no social life at all. I've actually become somewhat of a misanthrope which is the total opposite of my high school self. I can't relate to people my age anymore. I don't want to talk to or get to know anyone at school. I'd much rather be alone.

Right now I'm taking a one semester break from school and working with my dad when he needs my help. My parents aren't pressuring me to move out, but I can't help but feel like they don't want me here anymore. I guess it's just natural for a 20-year-old to get that feeling. For me, adulthood, or at least the first couple years of it, is depressing and meaningless. The only things keeping me sane are working on this project motocross bike I have in the garage and holding on to the idea that this is only temporary. Things will get better eventually. I'm a lucky guy overall and things could be far worse.

Goddamn, the similarities between us is crazy. Like, I know not knowing what to do with your life when posed the question (the point of going to uni) isn't new, but damn. Reading that made me feel a little better.

Being a kid was awesome purely because there were no responsibilities. That's why it was awesome for me. I remember having a conversation with my mom about why I can't do grown up things. She replied that when I get responsibilities, I can do more grown up things. So I asked for some responsibilities. She said go play. Of course I didn't understand that then, we never do: "I'll tell you when you're older." If I could go back, I'd give up anything... that thought goes through my head way too often.

Currently going through a rough time in Uni. I signed up for classes for next semester a little bit ago and realized I'm not going to be able to go through with this major (primary education). It's just not going to work. I know I want to work with kids, but I have no idea how this works. I'd be losing so many credits by switching and I don't even know what the **** I'm going to be switching to. I'm thinking about taking a semester off to figure some stuff out, but I have a fear that I won't make it back.

It's just the fear of the unknown. How will things work out? Is a sad movie closing credits the ending for me?

 

[Ravioli]

i graduated highschool in June this year, and ever since then life has changed drastically. However, its not for the worse or for the better, its complicated. I graduated from an American HS here in Italy, so all of my friends except for two moved back to the states. It was a small school so everyone was friends with everyone, so it was quite a big change when the people i have been hanging out with for the past 4 years were all of the sudden gone. No more parties, no more buddies coming over, no more clubbing, no more gokarting, no more snowboarding...nothing. Now i just spend my days sitting at the computer hour after hour...but tbh im LOVING it. Porn, music, games, movies, no responsibilities, no homework, no job to go to, free food, free housing...what else could i possibly want?

And ontop of that, my best friend still lives in Europe, but in Germany, so every now and then i fly up there and have a blast. Also, being 19 and not going to school means you have shitload of time for new things, and i can travel around europe as much as i want (depending on how much my dad is willing to pay). So in other words, all my friends were replaced with flying to other countries and meeting new people and having a great ****ing time. Life is quite epic atm.

Ofcourse i still miss everyone from highschool, and i will still visit most of them throughout my life, they are all a part of me.

 

[Dynasty]

I have to say, there were certain expectations that had become built up going through the schooling system through my years.

So now Im 23. I graduated Uni this year and have my ceremony in a few weeks time, which I have to fly home for (im currently overseas).

The idea that you have to succeed and work hard at school is partially bollocks, and looking back, it infuriates me at the bull***t I got told.

Im sure most of us have had our parents say something along the lines of 'well if you work hard at school and get a good job, you can afford that Ferrari/computer/house (etc etc)'.
And then the idea that you have to do well in school to get into A-levels (high school in UK, for 2 years and then you go to Uni, dont know how the US system works), and then do well in your A-levels to get into Uni.

Bollocks. ***king bollocks. I will take this line moment to my grave;

First day of A-levels, my very first lesson was Biology. My Biology teacher also happened to be deputy head of Sixth Form (year 12 and 13). We were learning about the heart and blood flows etc. Someone asked a question (cant remember the details), and our teacher turned around and said

''forget what youve learned in GCSEs, its mostly wrong''.....

Are you ***king kidding me???

So I worked through my A-levels and partially messed up my first year. I could go on to my second year, but things would be harder for me, so I decided to retake my first year, not caring what people thought. I did it for me. Yeah it sucked that my mates left a year before me, so I spent my year 13 with...well, twats really. I became extremely secluded, simply because the majority of my year were dickheaded, immature cocks that I didnt want anything to do with.

Past that year, and got into my Uni of choice.

So whats the problem? I didnt get anywhere near the grades required to get through any of those stages of schooling. Didnt get great GCSEs. Didnt get the required A-levels to get into my Uni (and they were B, B, C requirements). My degree is a 2:2. It feels like all that hype and expectation of great grades was just talk to get us to work harder.

But now look at me. Im overseas as a consultant in Africa. Getting paid a VERY respectable amount for a graduate (kind of expected though as im overseas) in a job I have not much experience in, not paying tax and get a monthly allowance paid to me for food and dont pay for accomodation or flights home and back. How? Because I am 'extremely mature for my age and punctual, and I have years of experience with living overseas (Ive lived in Malaysia and Dubai)'.

So, I dont actually have the right qualifications but they took me on due to my background and personality? And in the interview when I asked if they wanted to see my Uni results, the Director, not a manager or random desk jockey, the Director of the UKs biggest water-treatment consultancy smiled and just said 'we rarely ever look at your results, unless youre applying for a managerial or directors position'...and you want to hear the icing on the cake? This was my first interview coming out of Uni. My first interview. 3 days later, I got a call saying they wanted to make me an offer and that I would be recieving my contract etc in the next few days.

What the ***k!? I work all this time at Uni having the idea that good grades get you further in life, when they sometimes seriously dont???

Obviously my situation is against the rule these days, I feel ***king lucky to have any job at all considering the statistics for graduates.

Do I want to do this job working with GIS for the rest of my life? Probably not. Im taking it because I cant think of anything else im interested in right now, and the fact that I was offered a job at all. I wouldve been crazy to turn down this job on the basis that I didnt feel interested.

Is life in today's society actually worth living? Probably not, no. I honestly believe that. Whats our purpose? To consume every know resource on the planet and then move onto another planet, constantly procreating as we go. But thats for a different debate.

Do I have any contact with my Uni mates (who, yes, I was extremely close with and had the best time of my life with over 3 years)? No, not anymore really.

Graduation changes everything. You think its going to work out, but it doesnt. You slowly stop talking to your mates, and sit down after work, having a drink or whatever, watching the generic crap on TV and think to yourself how the hell you got into this situation. Neglecting the people that made you who you are today.

I was a serious recluse before going to Uni. First year at Uni changed my life. If I hadnt retaken that year at A-levels, I wouldnt have made the big circle of friends I had at Uni. It feels like destiny, even though I dont believe in it really. But I wouldnt have had the people in my hallway at halls if I hadnt retaken that year at A-levels. Those people literally made me the person I am today, someone Im proud to be.

When was the last time I talked to them that wasnt in passing? Its now November so it mustve been in...May? Maybe June?

It makes me feel physically sick when I think how broken-off I am now. God, im ashamed of myself for it in fact.

 

[VirusType2]

Currently going through a rough time in Uni. I signed up for classes for next semester a little bit ago and realized I'm not going to be able to go through with this major (primary education). It's just not going to work. I know I want to work with kids, but I have no idea how this works. I'd be losing so many credits by switching and I don't even know what the **** I'm going to be switching to. I'm thinking about taking a semester off to figure some stuff out, but I have a fear that I won't make it back.

Just keep going. Hundreds of thousands have taken the same path. The curriculum is laid out for you. If you think that you might have signed up for the wrong classes, talk to administration and they'd gladly reassure you or switch your classes. You should do so before they start.

You might want to try to never curse. Just a suggestion that might help later.

It's just the fear of the unknown. How will things work out?

The problem is that people don't get the courage to do things until after they've done them. :/

You just have to be brave, and have faith that things will work out. You have to believe in yourself. Has there ever been anything that you can't learn? Anything that you couldn't do if you tried? You can't possibly plan for everything that could go wrong. Instead, just go forth, and tackle the problems as they come.

I believe that you would be great with kids.

 

[MuToiD_MaN]

Wow, Dynasty, that was actually pretty engrossing. Normally I would have ended up with a tl;dr.

Good grades aren't the goal in college; they are in high school. You don't "win" with a 4.0 GPA at the end, but you definitely lose a very real loss if you don't in the form of the knowledge you take from it. I am a staunch supporter of picking a school that is entirely out of your native element due to the fact that you'll grow so much as a result. The experiences there truly shape your adult character. The experience was extremely valuable for me for those reasons. The obvious education (without which I never would have become a good software developer), the development of my character (without which I never would have passed my job interview), and also the friends I made (without which I would have gone crazy once I entered the workplace!).

 

[Dynasty]

Wow, Dynasty, that was actually pretty engrossing. Normally I would have ended up with a tl;dr.

Thanks.

Ive been told frequently that I write pretty well when I go off on a rant or have something to say that I feel should be expressed.

That was a rant, a pinprick on the balloon that is my withheld emotion, we all need to let a little out sometimes right?

This kind of thread is theraputic. Knowing there are people here that Ive been sharing experiences with for 5 years (wow, personally I feel thats a long time) that feel the same way about actuall problems like this makes you feel better about yourself for sharing. Its good for you.