Have you ever attempted suicide?

[Slacker]

I've wondered about it before but it's such an immense cop-out, and there's absolutely no reason to do it (existence, no matter how miserable, is better than not existing; using it as an escape is pathetic).

I dunno, the one or two times when I was seriously considering it I felt like a different person. I had tunnel vision that I was depressed and I was going to stay that way and I'd never ever be happy again. Pretty much all I could think about was how desperate I was to stop living.

But yeah, in hindsight I'm ****ing glad as hell I never did anything stupid.

 

[AntiAnto]

Once, I was in a bizarre mood (enlightened mood if I may) where I realized that life will always be senseless no matter what. Ambitions, money, loves, all of this make no sense after all. Then, I vaguely thought about ending my life, but I soon understood that this would be the most stupid thing anyone could do. Now, I find comfort in the very present moment.

Eckhart Tolle has hinted me to embrace those thoughts in a way I no longer worry about them. He's a great philosopher in my opinion. Search for his videos on youtube.

 

[Ennui]

Once, I was in a bizarre mood (enlightened mood if I may) where I realized that life will always be senseless no matter what. Ambitions, money, loves, all of this make no sense after all. Then, I vaguely thought about ending my life, but I soon understood that this would be the most stupid thing anyone could do. Now, I find comfort in the very present moment.

Eckhart Tolle has hinted me to embrace those thoughts in a way I no longer worry about them. He's a great philosopher in my opinion. Search for his videos on youtube.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existentialism

Existence precedes essence. Essence is the fun part.

 

[AntiAnto]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Existentialism

Existence precedes essence. Essence is the fun part.

Of course. Albert Camus genuinely triggered this endless state of mind I'm stuck in now.

 

[Ennui]

All of my life up to this point did, existentialism just made me sure that I was correct.

I like it.

 

[AntiAnto]

Also, marijuana.

 

[Ennui]

Marijuana never did anything for me except enhance/open my thought process to an extent. I would say that my experiences with LSD and mushrooms really screwed the cap on my personal philosophy (which is essentially existentialism with other stuff piled on top). It all makes too much sense.

And no sense at all.

I think the paradoxical dichotomy that exists at the root of everything I've ever been able to consider is the key, except that it doesn't matter. My head spins.

 

[AntiAnto]

Marijuana never did anything for me except enhance/open my thought process to an extent. I would say that my experiences with LSD and mushrooms really screwed the cap on my personal philosophy (which is essentially existentialism with other stuff piled on top). It all makes too much sense.

And no sense at all.

I think the paradoxical dichotomy that exists at the root of everything I've ever been able to consider is the key, except that it doesn't matter. My head spins.

I remember this summer, climbing up to my roof smoking my daily joint, lying and looking at the constellations and this intense feeling of senseless state of everything would engorge my mind. And then, my thoughts would venture on the number 2. Like everything was spinning in duality. There is no word to express that.

Great experiences.

 

[Slacker]

The last time I got high I saw two turtles having sex in the sky.

 

[Marinmald]

one time, years ago....I am better now.

 

[Naudian]

No.

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[Ms. Red]

Yes. I have a reminder on my wrist for the first attempt. The 2nd attempt I was fortunate enough to have not taken enough pills & woke up hours later with my "final good-bye note" still by my side. I tore it up & no one ever knew what I did.

Years later I keep this in mind if the feeling ever touches me again. It may sound lame but it's F ucking true: unhappiness, sadness is temporary......suicide is PERMANENT.

 

[Absinthe]

I've wondered about it before but it's such an immense cop-out, and there's absolutely no reason to do it (existence, no matter how miserable, is better than not existing; using it as an escape is pathetic).

That's debatable. I'd trade in a life of constant misery for nonexistence.

 

[Ennui]

Nah. Experience, regardless of its nature, is more valuable by default than the lack thereof. Perhaps not more enjoyable, but that's not the point as far as I'm concerned.

Plus, it's so easy to die anyway, I'd prefer it to not be by my own choice.

 

[Absinthe]

I don't know. Saying experience is more valuable by default doesn't strike me as a universal axiom. It's often true, but I don't consider it a rule. If your life has just been an unlivable train wreck for years with no end in sight, I don't see the point in torturing yourself just so you can live for the sake of it.

This isn't necessarily condoning of suicide. But there are situations where I can entirely understand it.

 

[JNightshade]

Nope. I've thought about it plenty during the really bad times, but I was never really willing to go that far. I understood the folly in it even then, I think.

 

[Atomic_Piggy]

I think everyone who is alive should pat themselves on the back.



Go ahead, do it right now, you earned it.







Your were the fastest/strongest sperm, and you had the drive in you to get to that egg before anyone else. F*ck them, YOU WON THE GREATEST RACE OF ALL!

Fukken' lol'd.

 

[Sulkdodds]

I don't know. Saying experience is more valuable by default doesn't strike me as a universal axiom. It's often true, but I don't consider it a rule. If your life has just been an unlivable train wreck for years with no end in sight, I don't see the point in torturing yourself just so you can live for the sake of it.

But...you'd die anyway! You might as well live!

 

[mchammer75040]

Heres a good vid on youth suicide. It explains the psychology around it i think it pretty much hits the nail on the head for me, Im sure plenty of you could relate.


[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vaDdPdi9zyk[/YOUTUBE]