Shamrock
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As of last year, I've had an undying urge to learn to play piano. It has never left me nor does it seem to want to leave me. I am in love with music. It blindsided me last summer. I was with my friends' band traveling with them to shows and taking photographs when I realized I wanted to play music. I wanted to perform in front of everyone and make them feel good.
I've always wanted to take lessons, but for some reason, I've never gathered the courage to actually do it. I feel like I am too late to join the crowd and will never be able to play with the likes of anyone. I feel like a 4 year old with training wheels, a parent holding me up, and a stupid little horn on the handlebars (pink mind you, oh and also, those little multicoloured tassels that dangle out the end of the bars).
I just don't know what to do as I want to reach my full potential. I want to be able to play music. It just haunts me everyday knowing I could be bettering myself with such an instrument, but can't because of the fact that I'm too scared? I don't only do this for this aspect of life but for everything. I have a patience problem I think. I want to be the best I can but in a short time I suppose. I've never really figured it out, but that is the best reason I can find.
Heh. Except for failure of course. I hate failure and am scared to death of it.
I don't know. I just needed to get this off my chest.
Anyone else ever feel like this?
I've always wanted to take lessons, but for some reason, I've never gathered the courage to actually do it. I feel like I am too late to join the crowd and will never be able to play with the likes of anyone. I feel like a 4 year old with training wheels, a parent holding me up, and a stupid little horn on the handlebars (pink mind you, oh and also, those little multicoloured tassels that dangle out the end of the bars).
I just don't know what to do as I want to reach my full potential. I want to be able to play music. It just haunts me everyday knowing I could be bettering myself with such an instrument, but can't because of the fact that I'm too scared? I don't only do this for this aspect of life but for everything. I have a patience problem I think. I want to be the best I can but in a short time I suppose. I've never really figured it out, but that is the best reason I can find.
Heh. Except for failure of course. I hate failure and am scared to death of it.
I don't know. I just needed to get this off my chest.
Anyone else ever feel like this?