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frances_farmer

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i dont know why im posting here. maybe its because i feel that someone out there is even bothered. im really really upset and i have nobody to talk to at all. i dont think i can take anymore blows because each time its just ****ing worse. **** i dont even know what to write or what the point to this is at all. life. whats the point? why do i waste so much ****ing time over pointless shit. why doesnt he cut me any slack. im feeling extremely suicidal at the moment. what a ****ing irony i have kurt cobain as my avatar. i dont have a gun though. shit i dont even have a plan. all i know is i want out. thank you for your time. go easy on me.
 
you need to call a help line. try boys town or 18009999999, they will give you the chat you need. boys town is 18004483000
 
Hmm maybe it's something in the air, i'm somewhat wondering where to go from where i am now.

:s

Sleep on it and keep in mind that HL2 will be out not too long from now. Thats atleast something ;)
 
Everyone feels bad at times, life has it's hard times, just stay strong and move through it, don't think you aren't wanted here....here visit this place.

http://www.save.org/
 
this has nothing to do with half-life 2.

quit being a pussy, life is full of bullshit that you won't like, you'll have to learn to deal with it and move on.
 
Do you have family or friends you can talk to about your feelings? It really helps to just sit down with someone and just tell them exactly how your feeling and why. They may not be able to change it, but it can often relieve a lot of stress by just getting things off your chest.

Or you can try hotlines like this one: http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

Can a mod remove Xtasy00's post and hopefully ban him too? That shit is not needed.
 
Xtasy00 said:
this has nothing to do with half-life 2.

quit being a pussy, life is full of bullshit that you won't like, you'll have to learn to deal with it and move on.
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Weren't you banned before? :|
 
It's cool dude, everyone has some hard times. Look to something you care about.
 
Wrong forum. Suicide threads go in Off topic. Unless you meant it to be in HL2 Discussion because of the shotgun link?

Anyhoo just remind yourself, there's always someone worse off than you, and don't sweat the small stuff, its all small.

Chin up.
 
Neutrino said:
Do you have family or friends you can talk to about your feelings? It really helps to just sit down with someone and just tell them exactly how your feeling and why. They may not be able to change it, but it can often relieve a lot of stress by just getting things off your chest.

Or you can try hotlines like this one: http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

Can a mod remove Xtasy00's post and hopefully ban him too? That shit is not needed.
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my post is Exactly what he needs.
 
well i hope you sort it all out mate. dont worry your sort it all out. And there is always someone who wants to help you out.

I hate to say it, but i know this thread is going to be moved (hope not closed) but will be moved cause it isn't a half life 2 general topic.

Maybe there is a help line you could try. Never tryed them before so i cant say what is the best one or what they are like.

Maybe there is a close friend or family member you could talk to.

Whatever and whoever it is Talk to someone about it. NEVER leave it wondering in your head fore just you to figure it out. Always talk to someone close ;).

hope it all works out for the best :D
 
Frances, this isn't much help but you just have to realise that there are people out there going through a lot worse times then you can even dream of.

Just take a step back and look at your life, if you don't like parts of it, then change them. I am going through a bad patch of my life at the moment and i don't know where to go, but you have to be brave and see what is round the next corner.
 
frances_farmer said:
i dont know why im posting here. maybe its because i feel that someone out there is even bothered. im really really upset and i have nobody to talk to at all. i dont think i can take anymore blows because each time its just ****ing worse. **** i dont even know what to write or what the point to this is at all. life. whats the point? why do i waste so much ****ing time over pointless shit. why doesnt he cut me any slack. im feeling extremely suicidal at the moment. what a ****ing irony i have kurt cobain as my avatar. i dont have a gun though. shit i dont even have a plan. all i know is i want out. thank you for your time. go easy on me.
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I was in the lowest place I could ever imagine for a while. I went through a really tough emotional period that I thought would never end. It lasted about two years and most of the time I felt I couldn't take it anymore - that I'd rather be dead.

I never so much as considered suicide though - because it seemed too easy and too cowardly. I realised that things had gotten so bad they simply couldn't get worse - so I fought it and I got over it.

No matter how bad things get it's never so bad it can't be fixed. My life is amazing now - better than I EVER could have hoped. And guess what? It's still getting better.
 
You need to understand life is the greatest gift granted. You need to find things you enjoy and concentrate on them. Some things are out of your control and always will be. As has been noted earlier in this thread you should seek some help be it a help line a good friend, your family. I hope you can come through this.
 
Xtasy00 said:
this has nothing to do with half-life 2.

quit being a pussy, life is full of bullshit that you won't like, you'll have to learn to deal with it and move on.
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classic :LOL:
 
just leave everything for a bit, go outside or something...then find someone to talk to

suicide is never the answer....
 
Well, the people being assholes are evil bastards who will hopefully drown in their own guilt.

However a) What is the point in killing yourself? All you do is make it so life never has the chance to get better?

b) It's not as bad as you think it is, people who feel depressed are SICK, I don't mean that in a bad way. I mean your thoughts are not your own, it is simply chemical levels in your brain making you feel bad.

Do not let the disease trick you into suicide.

c) After the D-Day celebrations, I feel like it would be very hard for me to feel sorry for myself, considering everything I have seen. Think of those people running up the beaches, with their friends being mown down in front of their eyes, 90% chance of death, and still moving on, never giving up. Never laying down to die. The hell they went through is almost unimaginable in this day and age, but we should remember how strong people can be, and how lucky we are that we don't have to face anything vaguely similar. They died to give us the life we enjoy today, and we should not squander that.

d) Look how nice most people are being to you, is it really worth getting depressed when you know that 80% of your fellow men will support you and hope that everything turns out ok? Ignore the assholes who say different, it is people like them that feel insecure in themselves, and the only way they can feel better is to put other people down. When they die, people will remember them as assholes, and they have wasted their lives.

Suicide posts go in off topic?

What do those people who cannot emote again? Oh yes, thats it, psychopaths :p
 
Xtasy00 said:
this has nothing to do with half-life 2.

quit being a pussy, life is full of bullshit that you won't like, you'll have to learn to deal with it and move on.
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I bet you are THE trent reznor.
 
SHIPPI said:
I've gone through bouts of depression all my life. I had it pretty bad in primary school, all through years 4,5, and 6. My friends suddenly weren't my friends, and they treated me like shit. I lived in a crap area of town, too, so I wasn't allowed outside without an adult. Shame the only adults were my parents, who worked all day, every day at the offlicence we owned. I remember crying on the steps at school at lunch, surrounded by happy, carefree people, who didn't give a damn about me at all. Not even the teachers. One time, I got hit in the eye with a football and I went blind in that eye for a good 10 minutes. Scary as hell. Did anyone help me to a teacher? Nope. They just laughed and ran off. Then I got told off by a teacher for getting injured; apparently it was my fault.

I know it's all little stuff, but it got to me real bad. Even in Yr 7, 8 and 9 it was the same. My old 'friends' wanted to be my friends again, and since they were the only people who wanted to talk to me I let them. Even though they talked shit about me behind my back. I'm in Yr 10 now, and it's getting better. We're in a better area of town, and I've made real friends now. I'm getting more confident, too, but 12 years of barely talking to anyone outside my family and 'friends' has taken it's toll and I still can't bring myself to talk to new people. The fact that my mum's always commenting on how many spots I have doesn't help my self-confidence much, either :rolleyes: There's a load of problems in my family too, but I'm not getting into it... I've gone on enough already

But I know it'll get better with time, and if I make an effort myself. Suicide has never crossed my mind once, since I've got a lot to live for. I admit that I've still got a few issues I need to sort out, but it's just a part of life I guess. I didn't mean to go on for as long as I did...
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We all talk to you and like having you around, even if you do pick your brothers nose and hate Big Brother :p
 
He's probably just a kid trying to get some attention over almost nothing. If you do commit suicide, could you tell us all what it was like? Was it really worth it?

On a lighter note, play some video games...it should keep your mind off of committing suicide...except when it says...GAME OVER. ;)
 
What's with the overwhelming amount of assholes here, all of a sudden?
 
Yeah......

Have some compassion people, you have no idea what this guy is going through.
 
Are you still alive frances_farmer? Post or something.
 
Don't die on us farmer, think it through. Please post to let us know everything is okay. Always remember that you are important. Your life should not be ended over something that will eventually get better. Trust me, things will shape up. If it is stress from school or a break up with your girlfriend, just take summer break off and be care free. Give yourself some time to recover. There are other girls in the world. (if that's part of the problem at all)

Bad things happen in life, they happen to everyone. Remain optimistic, don't let things get you down and try to have fun. You will feel much better, I promise. :)
 
If you need somone to talk to, try calling a suicide line or, one of you freinds, or hell were here weel be nice to you(besices xtacy).

Its not the way out, try measuring out the good things in life, or think about people with Real problems, many a time I feel like crap, I look at my gf, she just lost her cousin in a car accident, somthing of that magnitude kinda makes all other problem just seem...stupid...

Or if all else fails, go watch the south park movie it always seems to make me smile, Its easy M'kay...

Piz post or aim, or e-mail one of us to let us know your doing alright or not...

IF YOU NEED A LAUGH READ:
I just found out today talking to my Gf that apparently her X is not, mechanically inclined(if you know what im getting at) :dozey: ... Ohh man that makes it so much easyer for me, mabey I should call him and thank him for opening new doors for me with his, and i quote "Push Pop Like Pecker"...Yes i know im just soo nice... :thumbs:

ohh and Foshizzle...
 
Scorp_Ice183 said:
YOU NEED A LAUGH READ:
I just found out today talking to my Gf that apparently her X is not, mechanically inclined(if you know what im getting at) :dozey: ... Ohh man that makes it so much easyer for me, mabey I should call him and thank him for opening new doors for me with his, and i quote "Push Pop Like Pecker"...Yes i know im just soo nice... :thumbs:

ohh and Foshizzle...
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Lol. Double you tee eff? :LOL:
 
You people seem to be too harsh on Xtasy00. I think that the guy is talking in terms these kind of situations should be handled. Sure I'm depressed too some times and usually just kicking my butt helps. Of course talking to people helps also or writing diary (talking to yourself) but it sure helps sometimes to face the hard facts. Life is too short to be lived in misery and suicide not only ends your precious life but also hurts the people around you.
Try to hang in there frances_farmer and get yoursef up! Go jogging, get a pet and watch some Stargåte. Dean Anderson would say: "for crying out loud, I don't care" :)

cheers!
 
I'd like to point out the Xtasy00 was banned becuase he's a clone of Xtasy0, also banned :)

Annnyway pets are great to pet when you're feeling down :)
 
Gee no answer, you guys suck at helping people lol :E
 
this happened one time on my main forum.

(BF1942 related)

Some guy had basicly made up an identity and searched the net for other peoples work and tried to pass it off as his own.

he got found out and made a hysterical confession, then said something about being suicidal and stuff.

The general reaction was of sympathy but some people still didnt feel sorry for the guy (me included) cos he had copied other peoples work multiple times before and been caught every time, he would make a new account and do it again.

(this is in no way related to the original poster, just something this thread made me remember)
 
It better not be a joke...

what kind of sick bastard would toy with peoples emotions (yes i know its happens)
 
isnt the name francis farmer a nirvana song that itself is named after the real francis farmer who was institutionalised for most of her life cuz she was deemed crazy? I dont know it sounds awfully fishy

the real francis farmer
 
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