VirusType2
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Day after day, after day, after day, the sun comes up and goes down every day.
some times I wake up and think
1 'wtf'
2 'why am i here every day?'
3 'what is the point of life?'
4 'what do i do and why should i do it?'
5 'when im dead that means i don't have to do anything anymore'
6 'but i don't want to die'
7 'i want to live'
8 'am i the only one that thinks about weird shit like this?'
9 'wtf is wrong with me?'
go to step 1
after a while I just give up thinking about this and get out of bed
I am already full of regret for all the things I didn't do, and all the things I did do, and all the things I didn't do well.
Imagine when I am old how much regret I will have.
I'm dead. I killed myself last night. or no. no i didn't. Step 6 won't allow me.
I give up. Its too complicated, I can't figure out what Im supposed to do. I can't figure life out.
I am just living becuase I won't let myself kill myself. Is that a good reason to live? simply becuase I am required by my own instincts?
It's cold outside so I go inside. Pain hurts so I don't do it. its instinct. I know of some pain-free ways to kill myself but I still can't do it. There is something I want to do first. Watch some TV, play some games...
WTF
I am here so I can have fun?
What is the meaning of life?
Humans are a virus on earth.
The only other creatures besides humans on earth that like to have fun are dogs, cats, and ferrets. Is that becuase we have poisoned their mind? made them lazy and safe? Domesticated them? all other animals are strictly buisiness and just go look for food and reproduce. Thats what I want to do. I want to be a wild animal.
Does anyone else think about any of this? One of my old friends said, " you know what your problem is? You think about ****ed up shit. I don't think about shit like that. " Then we took another bong hit. That was a long time ago.
Im tired Im going to bed. I hope to see the sun come up again tomorrow.
cheers.
some times I wake up and think
1 'wtf'
2 'why am i here every day?'
3 'what is the point of life?'
4 'what do i do and why should i do it?'
5 'when im dead that means i don't have to do anything anymore'
6 'but i don't want to die'
7 'i want to live'
8 'am i the only one that thinks about weird shit like this?'
9 'wtf is wrong with me?'
go to step 1
after a while I just give up thinking about this and get out of bed
I am already full of regret for all the things I didn't do, and all the things I did do, and all the things I didn't do well.
Imagine when I am old how much regret I will have.
I'm dead. I killed myself last night. or no. no i didn't. Step 6 won't allow me.
I give up. Its too complicated, I can't figure out what Im supposed to do. I can't figure life out.
I am just living becuase I won't let myself kill myself. Is that a good reason to live? simply becuase I am required by my own instincts?
It's cold outside so I go inside. Pain hurts so I don't do it. its instinct. I know of some pain-free ways to kill myself but I still can't do it. There is something I want to do first. Watch some TV, play some games...
WTF
I am here so I can have fun?
What is the meaning of life?
Humans are a virus on earth.
The only other creatures besides humans on earth that like to have fun are dogs, cats, and ferrets. Is that becuase we have poisoned their mind? made them lazy and safe? Domesticated them? all other animals are strictly buisiness and just go look for food and reproduce. Thats what I want to do. I want to be a wild animal.
Does anyone else think about any of this? One of my old friends said, " you know what your problem is? You think about ****ed up shit. I don't think about shit like that. " Then we took another bong hit. That was a long time ago.
Im tired Im going to bed. I hope to see the sun come up again tomorrow.
cheers.