Ravioli
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So today was the day...the day all men fear. I lost respect for my manhood. It might sound silly but we all know that we have a certain respect to live up to being a male...its just some areas where we have to show that we are best in and compete in. I have noticed lately that im slowly loosing my manhood. Today it was as if the devil himself yelled in my ear "YOU ARE NOT A MAN YOU LIL ****". Let me explain the situation:
I am tall, not super tall, but tall, taller then most ppl in my school. This gives me a kind of respect for myself that im not looken down upon. That im the one who looks down on people. However, im skinny and weak. I have been this way my entire life. I have worked out in PE classes and such but never on my freetime because...well, im a gamer, i play games all day!
Ive been noticing changes around me, people are swelling up with muscles and are growing larger and larger. Its like im walking around with supermens. I have also gotten alot of comments from ppl, such as "ur so skinny" or "put some meat on ur bones" or "damn even my sister is stronger then you". Im like "wtf?"...its like, one day everyone is normal and all is ok, the next day everyone is Hercules and your supposed to have big strong arms and muscles and play in the football team!!! WTF? No one ever....ever thought me about training fysicaly! It has never even come in my mind to workout!
The worst thing that happend today was to see a little chick, 1 year younger then me, quite small and very cute...had much bigger bicepts then me. I dont mean fat, i mean real MUSCLES. She pulled her sleves up and strengthen her bicepts....right then and there, the time stopped, everything was in ultra slow motion. I had just realize i have lost my man hood. I saw my soul leaving my body saying "F U im not staying in ur weak body" and walk away. At that very moment i feelt like all my bones had collapsed. I was stunned for the next few hours, i couldnt talk or do anything. I had just lost my damn selfrespect of my manhood...i feelt like a girl.
Now, im not a girl (lol) i have a mind of a man, i do what everyother man does. YES i do 1 sport, one sport only! Snowboarding, the only area im good in. However, snowboarding requires strong leg muscles which i have however you never show your leg muscles because they are covered with PANTS so no one knows about my durability and stamina.
Well...i dont know who ells has been in this position...but i feel very...depressed...questions popping in my head such as "why doesnt my biceps ****ing grow?" or "why didnt someone give me some weights to lift?"
I asked some guys about their work out and they told me they do situps and such every morning. Since when do you ****ing do that? In the morning i drag myself over the floor to reach the door and if i do i need to crawl over the street to reach the bus stop...im to tierd.
Also, whats up with the healthy food everyone all of the sudden are eating? One day everyone eats pizza and hamburgers and its awesome, the next day that kind of food is disguting and for kids...no no, now you must eat salad and healthy food. Shit im the only noob that eats a pizza in the lunch room when everyone ells eat their damn "healthy food".
Anyway, you are probably one of those im describing, prolly laughing at me right now saying im such a weak lil noob. But im tal and i do snowboarding so STFU...plus i pwn at games. But everyone seems to judge you by your body...im sick of it...depressed of it.
And no, im not Emo. I got friends but they are not real friends, no friends that you hang out with on my freetime or share intressts with. Can anyone give me tips plz, how do i gain my manhood back again? I really dont know how long i can last with this...being judged cause my body is made of skin and bone really sux...
sux to be me
I am tall, not super tall, but tall, taller then most ppl in my school. This gives me a kind of respect for myself that im not looken down upon. That im the one who looks down on people. However, im skinny and weak. I have been this way my entire life. I have worked out in PE classes and such but never on my freetime because...well, im a gamer, i play games all day!
Ive been noticing changes around me, people are swelling up with muscles and are growing larger and larger. Its like im walking around with supermens. I have also gotten alot of comments from ppl, such as "ur so skinny" or "put some meat on ur bones" or "damn even my sister is stronger then you". Im like "wtf?"...its like, one day everyone is normal and all is ok, the next day everyone is Hercules and your supposed to have big strong arms and muscles and play in the football team!!! WTF? No one ever....ever thought me about training fysicaly! It has never even come in my mind to workout!
The worst thing that happend today was to see a little chick, 1 year younger then me, quite small and very cute...had much bigger bicepts then me. I dont mean fat, i mean real MUSCLES. She pulled her sleves up and strengthen her bicepts....right then and there, the time stopped, everything was in ultra slow motion. I had just realize i have lost my man hood. I saw my soul leaving my body saying "F U im not staying in ur weak body" and walk away. At that very moment i feelt like all my bones had collapsed. I was stunned for the next few hours, i couldnt talk or do anything. I had just lost my damn selfrespect of my manhood...i feelt like a girl.
Now, im not a girl (lol) i have a mind of a man, i do what everyother man does. YES i do 1 sport, one sport only! Snowboarding, the only area im good in. However, snowboarding requires strong leg muscles which i have however you never show your leg muscles because they are covered with PANTS so no one knows about my durability and stamina.
Well...i dont know who ells has been in this position...but i feel very...depressed...questions popping in my head such as "why doesnt my biceps ****ing grow?" or "why didnt someone give me some weights to lift?"
I asked some guys about their work out and they told me they do situps and such every morning. Since when do you ****ing do that? In the morning i drag myself over the floor to reach the door and if i do i need to crawl over the street to reach the bus stop...im to tierd.
Also, whats up with the healthy food everyone all of the sudden are eating? One day everyone eats pizza and hamburgers and its awesome, the next day that kind of food is disguting and for kids...no no, now you must eat salad and healthy food. Shit im the only noob that eats a pizza in the lunch room when everyone ells eat their damn "healthy food".
Anyway, you are probably one of those im describing, prolly laughing at me right now saying im such a weak lil noob. But im tal and i do snowboarding so STFU...plus i pwn at games. But everyone seems to judge you by your body...im sick of it...depressed of it.
And no, im not Emo. I got friends but they are not real friends, no friends that you hang out with on my freetime or share intressts with. Can anyone give me tips plz, how do i gain my manhood back again? I really dont know how long i can last with this...being judged cause my body is made of skin and bone really sux...
sux to be me